What to do...?

I just wanna die, I'll be honest.

I feel pretty bad tonight. Hell, I've felt like **** for what feels like forever.

I know that cutting just isn't enough anymore. And now I just want it to end.

It's **** but it's true.

I just give up.

So what, I cut and hope for the best? Or I do the alternative? Or both...

**** this.

[atomicc]

Please don't hurt yourself, you are loved and cared about! I'm sorry you're hurting so much, I'm here if you want to talk

I don't know what to do. This has been going on and on and I just can't keep taking it. How long do I keep putting it off?

[MusicLover79]

I'm sorry your having such a hard time. Don't hurt yourself though I'm here if you want to talk. I've had days and months where I felt like this. It gets better.

I have never been one to give speeches or even give a pep talk but i hope you will take the time to read this. THIS IS FOR ANYBODY CONSIDERING ENDING IT ALL. Now take it from me, a person has considered ending it and has attemped to. I am not going to go into details for the benfit of anyone reading this. Now some would call it divine intervention or me just using cheap ammo but it didnt happen. Its easy for people who havent been to the edge and looked over to say theres always tommorow or it will get better. But i have been to that edge and have tried to jump. It does get better. It isnt worth it. Weather you know it or not there are always people that care. You rob those people and other, like me, of the chance to get to know you. Please take this into account .

[Poppy Princess]

Oh no, I'm sorry I wish I had known.

I am so sick of it though. This has been going on for years. Yes sometimes its better. But it inevitably gets bad again.

I am so desperate to die and the only thing stopping me is the people that I love...both irl and here.

It is so hard to keep waking up though.

But what about the people that love you. If you did this to them, they would start blaming themselves. Wondering what they did wrong. Wondering what they could have do. The worst kind of blame is the blame we put on ourselves. Its the easiest to admit, but the hardest to forgive. Its part of the reason i never told my family what i tried to do. I couldnt do that to them. Think of all the memoies you will miss out on. I would not have see my my brother graduate or met the man my sister loves with all heart. Is life perfect no. Everything has ups and downs but that is what makes life worth living. The point is there is always tommorrow and you never know what might happen

Truth is I've tried it three times already, and they are aware. They know how much I am struggling. And they worry about me, worry if I'm just gonna do it and it will work. I know that. And I also think that I should just do it so that the worry disappears!

That worry will just change to guilt. Guilt that they didnt take you seriously. Maybe its time to talk to a professional. Sombody that will take you seriously and give you the help you deserve. That first step is different for everybody. Some people find it had, others find it easy. The point is it starts them moving forward to something better. For me joining this place was the first step and it was hard. But it got me going.

I am getting help, been seeing my T for over a year now. Nothing is getting any easier!

The hospital local to me is one of the worst in the country. And everyone always says in general how you don't wanna get sick at the weekend as the level of care then isn't as good, not as many doctors etc...

Me? Sounds like the best time to do something...less likelihood of saving me...