Scars as medals

There is a flip-side to that coin.

I wanted to recommend a song to you that comforts me with my SI. It describes for me how my brain works when I'm in that mindset and I hope it comforts you too. "Razor" by Foo Fighters.

Thank you so very, VERY much.... I will listen to it. But I can not express to you how much it meant to me that you would offer this.

Just listened to your song (Razor - by Foo Fighters).

WOW. Not just amazing lyrically and the acoustic guitar play is awesome... Just completely powerful.

I overlap my cuts, mainly because of space, I cut a lot and often, so it's unavoidable. However I do prefer my cuts to scar. The deeper the better. I feel it's a sign that what I'm experiencing is real and no one can tell me I'm faking it

OMG!! Just listened/watched to the youtube version


Wow.... do you find that it may kinda make you WANT to go visit your "old friend of mine"? Especially the upbeat and intense ending.?.?.?

When I started SI I was precise and organized about it, each cut a straight line. But when my mood and anxiety really started to spiral out of control, my SI became disorganized and more out of control, which lead to me going to the hospital. I do see each little scar as a memory of making it through a rough time, even though I keep opening up almost healed scabs. I am still ashamed of them.

It never made me want to SI, just comforted me because I knew someone finally felt what I felt.

I heard an interesting saying. " Scars serve as constant reminders of the places that you've been and the things you've done." Cant remember where I heard or read it, but it always stuck in my head.

I guess I feel a little different. I am ashamed of my scars. Started cutting on my abdomen years ago to hide them. The ones on my arms are light enough not to be noticed. But when I see them, I feel it's a reminder that I can't 'deal'.
And, of course, when a medical professional sees them, whether they comment or not, I just think they see another 'nut case'.

Sorry that you struggle with image issues Reesecups.

Personally - I almost "embrace" the term nut case. Part of me says 'ya - I do not want to be part of the *normals*'. Maybe even a little bit of me giving the finger to the world.........

Useless Me, I want to give you a big fat *Hug*

lol - that is cuz you have not seen me.....

Lol- maybe it's the cute little puppy dog, with the puppy dog face!

I guess I was raised to believe mental illness was not real. So when I realized that I had some serious problems, it took years before I sought help. And I still feel shame, even though I know it's nothing to be ashamed of. My family was told by my mother I was disabled for physical reasons, so most of them don't even know that I have mental problems.

When I'm with friends from program, I have no problems when we call each other crazy or nut case because when I'm in program or with those friends, we already know that we all have problems and challenges and don't expect each other to act 'normal'.

normal is boring....

We are the spice to a big old piece of this ****-burger called life!