[skywalker1988]

This is just a rant about what I really think about therapists and suicide hotlines.

Who in the hell thinks someone wants to call a hotline when they are thinking about committing suicide? I know I sure don't! Hell, if I can't get someone to talk to me now, to care about me now, then how the hell do I expect stupid strangers who don't know anything about my life. I get so ANGRY when I read questions of people who are asking if they've taken this much, or if they've overdosed on this much, and then the stupid responses would be to call a stupid hotline and to "talk it out". ********. Do you think we are really the fricken stupid?! Most of my life I've been used, bullied and treated badly by everyone and everything. Things always go in cycles, until it ends up where its just bad times all the time, and you can't seem to get a break.

Honestly I don't want to work anymore, and I'm 25 years old! I've been married and divorced within 5 years because I left my stupid ex because she used me. I don't want to be in another relationship anymore, I don't want to get married anymore. I want to live alone. I hate being told what to do because its all ********. When you die, you ain't taking nothing with you that is here on this earth. I'm so sick and tired of people trying to use other people to try and get rich and get more stuff, when all in the end it doesn't matter. Your degrees, your jobs, even your family doesn't even matter anymore.

Oh and the fricken Emergency Room. I hate that place. Do you think If I was going to commit suicide, that I would waltz right in there and tell them what I wanted to do? Hell no, if I wanted to die, I probably wouldn't tell anymore and do it on my own terms. Even with that said, why would you stop someone from killing themselves hmmm? You get all sad, and you want to sympthatize with that person, but where were you even before this came up? If you go to the ER, and tell them you want to kill yourself, they will put you in a guarded room held up by cops, then send you off to a ward which is basically a building much like prison for the mentally "insane".

Those people there will ****ing LIE to you. that is why I hate the ER, thats why I hate these wards or centers because they don't give a DAMN about you. They just don't want you to die, they want you to live and get back to serving your bosses by doing work, and getting paid low salaries why them kings our own their high up thrones stealing from everyone else.

I don't care what anyone else says - there really isn't nothing worth living for.

[reesecups]

I understand what you're saying. I've made the mistake of calling a hotline twice just to talk before I even did anything and got the cops called on me. And I agree, that there is no reason to go to the ER if you are intent on killing yourself. You only do one of the above if you have even an inkling of hope that there is something out there that can help. No one but you has the choice as to whether you live or die. Whether professionals in ER or psych wards care, they aren't much help when you leave.

I understand your anger. I hope you are lucky enough to find someone that gives a damn. It took over 30 years for me. Do I know you? No. But I hope you can find an answer to why you shouldn't do it. Good luck. I'll be thinking of you.