[ontheotherside]

My sister asked me if i had started SI again. I had been doing better, sometimes going a few months or so without causing myself any harm. But lately, lately its gotten so bad, every day is such a huge struggle, and most days I crack. When she asked me, I looked her straight in the eyes and said no. I trust my sister with everything, but this, this I can't share with her. I'm ashamed. I want to open up to her about it, but I'm afraid of what she'll say. I'm supposed to be the strong one in the family. I know she looks up to me, and to be honest that terrifies me that she even knew about this.

[kaliope]

I am sorry that you are struggling so much and have to hide it from your sister who could be there to support you. I hope that you have support in other places or can get the support that you need. welcome to psych central. you will find that we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome.

[mazing]

Welcome to the forums

It is great that you have such a good relationship with your sister and that she is there to support you. It's always up to you who you tell, and only when you feel comfortable, and it can be extremely hard to have that conversation with family members. From your post it seems that your sister knows about your past self-injury. If you don't mind answering, how did she react last time she found out about it? It can often be a good judge of how she would react now.

Welcome again. I hope you can find what you are looking for here. It is a great place to get support.