Feeling so guilty...

So my husband's grandmother has been really nice and let us sleep in her living room because my husband's job fell through and we have no money and no where to live (unless we move back to Virginia, which is a BAD idea). Well now stuff keeps coming up and she keeps having to spend HER money on her kids and grandkids. and now i feel really guilty and am sitting in the living room trying not to cry and failing because I feel like she would be able to help her family more if we weren't here. i feel like a burden and really really want to grab my razor. but i know i shouldn't. but i can't talk to anyone here about it cause they either don't know or too busily involved in the situation to sit and listen. i don't know what to do :'( i don't even know if this post will get deleted for being too triggering, but i'm hoping not. i just wish i had someone to talk to right now... great, now i'm crying. hopefully i can stop before anyone notices (they are in the next room talking). i can feel my arms begging me to scratch or cut or something to relieve the stress.

I can understand why you feel guilty. Can you tell her how you feel? Feel free to message me if you want to talk.

yeah we talked about it a bit last night cause i ended up breaking down and crying

Did that help you at all? Maybe getting some stuff out helped you?

a little bit yeah