[KeepHoldingOn]

After over a year clean I relapsed. I was so happy to be clean for so long, it was inspirational. I got so many loving responses to my progress here on pc and now I feel like I've let all of you down, as well as myself. I don't understand why I gave in, it's been so long since I've had am urge that bad and I don't even know what triggered it. I feel shameful, like I did something horrible, irreversible. I feel like I'm starting to fall apart again, like all the progress I've made is gone, and the person I became is gone as well. I don't know what to do.

[StarStrike]

You haven't done anything horrible or let anyone down. Everyone has their ups and downs and right now, you're having a big down. Please don't beat yourself up about it.

[mazing]

We all fall sometimes. Please try to not be too hard on yourself. You haven't failed. It isn't horrible or the end. What is most important is what happens now. You can pick up and get back there again. Be gentle with yourself, give yourself time and start again. It is possible to get back there

[puzzclar]

As someone wiser than I said. "It's not a relapse, it's just a lapse"
It's not from square one that we go back to, because we have tools that we can use to start again.

This very Idea has helped me, and I hope it helps you too!!! (and others reading this)

[ickydog2006]

We still love you