[Daeva]

Where you regret giving your blades to staff. -_- Then getting angry cause it's your ******* arm not theirs. When did my view become so "twisted"?

[tametc]

Originally Posted by Daeva

Where you regret giving your blades to staff. -_- Then getting angry cause it's your ******* arm not theirs. When did my view become so "twisted"?

Daeva, do you want to talk about what's going on?

you gave ALL of them??? I always keep some handy.... my wallet, my car, at work, my coat. Hell I have even taped razors to my most private parts when I visit my shrink - just in case they make me go in-patient.

[Fuzzybear]

[smmath]

I think it was good that you gave your blades away. It may make the urges stronger, but at least it's harder for you to hurt yourself.

[Frankbtl]

Hi, REAL good move there Daeva, sounds like somewhere (deep?) in there you've a want/need to avoid cutting. Afterall the instinct wasn't there (or not so strong?) to hold out with anything.
May feel like you've lost a bit of control or that they've taken that away from you (?) so your feelings make complete sense. But you still have choices, you can still make the choice to get/use help in anyway you want. The control is still yours, maybe just take that control in coming through this? You can still do this for YOU.
But if you want to tell us a bit more then we're here for you.
Alison