[Hellion]

So I have sort of a weird thing about smoking cigarettes. Sometimes if I feel like smashing my head against a wall because people are arguing and I can't take the yelling or other frusterations I might go smoke a cigarette instead. Or if I have suicidal ideation of some way to off myself I might go have a cigarette instead. So its like doing something harmful so I don't do something more harmful though I know smoking can be very damaging in the long run. Haven't been able to put this into words to mental health professionals or doctors. Last time I went to the doctor for a cold they talked to me about not smoking and free patches or gum or resources to quit...and I couldn't qutie express that part of the reason I am not intrested in those is they aren't harmful like cigarettes.

Any thoughts on this or am I just over-analyzing my smoking habit?

[smmath]

I think that no matter what the action is, the key to self harm is intent. If you are smoking to purposely cause yourself harm, whether it happens soon or twenty years from now, doesn't matter.

Are you smoking to cause harm to yourself?

[Hellion]

Yeah and that is sort of why I have a hard time giving it up...when I try to 'quit' I just want to smoke more. Though as for my genetics none of my family members who smoke have developed lung cancer or any smoking related illnesses so not even sure its real self harm even if it is unhealthy.