[breakmystride]

I have to go to the doctor tomorrow and I'm freaking out. They're going to see my scars and notice how much weight I've lost. Everyone is going to find out what I've been doing to myself and my life is going to be ruined. I don't know what to do.

[Rapunzel]

Or you could get the support so that you can change your life for the better. It is scary to change. You have to give up something that you know in order to take the chance that there could be something better. Doctors are there to help you to get healthy, not to ruin your life.

One day at a time........... first go see them and then let's see how they respond. You made a lot of assumptions..... my guess is the worst case is they ask you to see a therapist.

[Metalsauce]

Your life is not going to be ruined. I know it feels that way right now, and it's a perfectly valid way to feel. However, why do you feel that way? What do you think is going to happen to ruin your life? It seems to me that you are simply going to end up getting some help. That seems far from ruination to me. If you ever need to talk, about anything at all, I'll be here. Good luck, and I hope all goes well. You're going to be just fine.

[breakmystride]

So she referred me to a therapist. She didn't tell my parents about the self-harm since I'm an adult and so legally everything has to be confidential, but I know it's probably going to have to come out anyway.

I'm so depressed right now, I really can't even put it into words.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm glad you are going to start therapy.