[celtic.starlite]

It has been 6 days since I last cut. I have a lot of bad thoughts in my head and cutting would be the least harmful right now. I know it is just the depression and if I could just pull myself out of this funk things wouldn't seem so bad. I just feel like I'm too far into the dark, there is no light at the end of the tunnel. I am being consumed by the black hole. I'm not sure anybody would notice if anything happened. I have to wait 4 more days for the dumb contract to be up. That feels like a very long time. I am just tired.

Keep on going. Its ****ing hard but take each day by day. You are doing well.

[Frankbtl]

Hi Celtic, and if only just pulling yourself out of it was that easy........but I know it really isn't easy at all. But going six days without cutting considering the way you've been feeling is a massive achievement!! I know you may feel on the edge of it now, but that strength inside of you that got you this far.............maybe try turning on the depression...........the cause of all of this. It is the depression pulling you in, it may feel like a part of you, but you are still in there.
And you can have a better life, including seeing that light at the end of the tunnel (which is there!!) with some help and support in pushing that depression slowly further and further away. It might be hard to believe now, but if you just give yourself that thought that things can be different. You've more than earned that thought, and help is out there.
I know that it might be really hard, but remember that in that darkness we are here with you, we're here to help you, we're here to support you in finding your way through it. You are being noticed and we do care.
Now maybe count of each of those four days as a step closer to helping you in moving away from............or a step closer to getting even more support with this from your T. Every day counts!!
Here for you
Alison

[celtic.starlite]

Thanks 8888an8888 and Alison.

Had a busy day, guess that is supposed to be good. Now time to just curl up in a ball and disappear.... I wish.

Celtic

[Bill3]

One day at a time, you are doing well.

[celtic.starlite]

I'm trying Bill. :-(

[Fuzzybear]

[Idiot17]

(((((Celtric)))))). It's exhausting.

[celtic.starlite]

Just wanted to post an update. I'm doing better today. I still have bad thoughts in my head, but I still feel better than I was. I don't feel as hopeless or depressed any more (the depression is still lingering but hopefully I can pull out of it soon).

Thanks for all the support! It means a lot to me and I appreciate it!

Celtic

[Frankbtl]

Hi, really good news Celtic!!! Depression rarely just goes away "overnight" but each "better" day, really does count. A step in the right direction!!
Here's hoping for more "better" days for you, and you know where we are for any "not so better" days.
Alison

[celtic.starlite]

Thanks Alison! Big hugs! Day 10 has made it and no cutting! I'm feeling pretty good today.

Thank you to everyone for the support!

Celtic

[TheTurtleLives]

Celtic, You will be okay your doing so much better then me im so proud of you xx, I know its hard but i know you can do it your very strong and this is something you can get yourself our of ...Im totally with you in the black hole!!!!i haven't cut in 3 days but i found other ways to hurt myself ....But im here for you Hugs xxx

[celtic.starlite]

Turtle, big hugs! Thanks!
Today is day 12 for me. I barely feel the pull of the depression. You just keep fighting Turtle! You are also very strong. Hugs!

Celtic

[Frankbtl]

Originally Posted by celtic.starlite

Turtle, big hugs! Thanks!
Today is day 12 for me. I barely feel the pull of the depression. You just keep fighting Turtle! You are also very strong. Hugs!

Celtic

Day 12!!!!!! Celtic!!!!!! WELL DONE!!!!!!

That is SO good!!!!!!!! Hang in there!!!!!!!!!!!

Alison

[celtic.starlite]

Thank you, Alison! You have been a huge support and I really appreciate your cheer leading. I am feeling really good today.

Celtic