Cuts are beautiful

This is really weird, but cuts are beautiful. Like I cut myself a few weeks ago on my back, and i just watched the blood drip down my back. it was beautiful. if i had my phone i would've taken a picture and saved it. this is odd for me, as this is just within the last 5 months I've thought cuts are "beautiful". i was watching american horror story, and watching the scenes where they cut themselves was just wonderful. I've been feeling rather depressed after an incident, and tomorrow if my feelings don't settle i plan to cut myself. I'm kinda excited in a sick, twisted way.

anyone else like this??

Hello, HelloWorld18.

Cutting and Self-Injury | World of Psychology

I wish you well.

Hello World,

I know what you mean or how you feel about the cutting. When I cut myself, I watch the blood as well, and in fact, I take pictures of it and I paint pictures of it. It's been some of my best work as an artist. To me this self mutilation is at the least twisted. Almost everyone I know tells me "when you feel like cutting, call me" but I don't want to be talked out of cutting. I just want them to listen to how I'm feeling and not judge me. But they all want to try and fix me, and it doesn't work that way.

The other thing is, I want to express this pain, and I get frustrated when it's not coming through in my artwork, and I tend to be in a dissociative state while painting. And when the work isn't coming out right, I turn the tools on myself because the expression is instantaneously visible. The pain that I feel is clear.

Everyone acts like it's so easy to stop. It just makes things worse. And everyone judges. And that makes it worse too.

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I don't find them beautiful personally and I am always disgusted with myself for cutting.

Not a cutter, but the few times that I have cut I did really like the looks of them. I usually cut on my abdomen (so that no one else would see), so I could only see the cuts when I showered. It made me feel like I had battle scars.

I totally understand this. I've told T that I understand it's one of my "distorted thoughts" but it's true. I totally get this.

I don't think all cuts are beautiful, but I can appreciate neat, well placed ones or ones with a story.

I'm always decidedly uncomfortable when encountering someone who finds cuts beautiful. I think it's some kind of attempt at making the addictive aspect of cutting okay somehow, and I don't want anything like that anywhere near me. I feel fetishized and dehumanized by people who think this kind of thing.

I get what you mean. When I look at my cuts I find them beautiful. I feel like they are apart of me now and that in some odd way they add on to who I am. Honestly I never thought anyone else found it beautiful.

I don't see the beauty in mutilated flesh. I agree with another poster here that it could well play a part in the normalizing of abuse towards our own bodies and that i'm not ok with. Not that i would deny anyone's right to do whatever they want with themselves. Not sure self harm is in anyone's best interest though...at least not long term. Tricky i guess.

I understand what you mean.

It's not twisted or weird. You just use it as a coping mechanism. And cuts are neither beautiful nor ugly. Of course, I wish you didn't have any. But even though you do, I still love everything about you. Stay strong.

i used to keep photos of mine,

I think the cuts reflect deep mental disturbance and are ugly and disturbing.

I agree, cuts are beautiful. Looking at it is soothing and calming.