[puzzclar]

After much thought, there's a concencize that what I do is not si. I've been in shock over that for most of the week, but now its getting to me. I've thought of trying something more drastic but know that's jot smart. I feel lost. And feeling that is becoming too much. I'm afraid to be alone. Even sitting here before sleep is getting harder by the second. Sleep come quickly!

[SoupDragon]

sorry you are feeling afraid- hope you manage to sleep. Soup

[tealBumblebee]

Originally Posted by puzzclar

After much thought, there's a concencize that what I do is not si. I've been in shock over that for most of the week, but now its getting to me. I've thought of trying something more drastic but know that's jot smart. I feel lost. And feeling that is becoming too much. I'm afraid to be alone. Even sitting here before sleep is getting harder by the second. Sleep come quickly!

I understand that feeling of not being able to trust yourself - it's why I initially began therapy in the first place. What makes you think that whatever act you are engaging in is not a form of self injury? In my opinion, any act, regardless of degree, intended to hurt ones self classifies as self injury.

One thing I do is prick my fingers. Does it bleed/hurt? Yes. Will it kill me? No. Will it bleed more than a few seconds? No. Will it even leave a scar? Not always. Does it still count as a form of self injury? Yup.

I don't think you should invalidate your actions/feelings; there will be plenty of other people in life who will want to do that for you anyways. I'm sorry to hear that you are having such a rough time but i'd advise you not to attempt anything more drastic as you suggest; it's a bit of a slippery slope honestly.