[XSleepingSiren21X]

I don't know why, but reading other peoples self-harm, triggers me to want to self harm myself. I generally stay away from the forum for that reason sometimes, but I'm almost drawn to it because I want to read how other people handle it or their complications.

Just the thought of leaving a scar on my skin gives me a feeling of excitement and heavy urges. I want to cut myself so badly, but I know it's not good for my health.

I want to read and help other people with self-harm, but I can't get over the feeling, it comes so easy, just reading the titles trigger me. Why are my urges so strong?

If I try to distract myself or try to forget, it gets worse. How can I get my mind off the subject, before I do anything to get my 'fix'?

[3xjj]

Do you know what the underlying feeling is that drives you to want to self harm? Depression, boredom, anxiety, etc?

[XSleepingSiren21X]

Originally Posted by 3xjj

Do you know what the underlying feeling is that drives you to want to self harm? Depression, boredom, anxiety, etc?

Boredom, disruptive thoughts of self harm, excitement. Most of the time I'm sub-consciously aware of it and I'm almost dissociated by the reality of my actions.

[Blue_Bird]

Do you have any coping skills you think would help?

[XSleepingSiren21X]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Do you have any coping skills you think would help?

I listen to music or watch TV. That helps me forget.

[Browncurtains]

That is exactly how I feel! Everything you said describes everything I do too. It's really hard to stop thinking about SH when I do come here, but I find that doing things with people helps. I normally log off here and try to find someone to play games or watch tv with. If not try reading a book to get SH off your mind.
My triggers are loneliness, boredom, and anger. So by talking to people I counteract these triggers. After you come here try talking to doing a couple of these things. I hope they help you!

[Fuzzybear]