[amayastar]

I want to stop hurting myself so bad.
I have a hard time fighting the urges.
I hate the emotions I feel when I don't cut.
Music helps sometimes. Grr..
It's been a rough week.
I hope T doesn't ask Wend how the self-harm I going
Because I don't think I have the ability to be honest about it.

[kaliope]

i think it is really important to be honest with t about the self harm and the feelings you get when you do it so you can work on coping skills to help you develop ways to prevent further self harm.

[Frankbtl]

Hi amayastar, just like kaliope said I'd say it is important that you're honest with your T.
And you know, any experienced T should know it often isn't anywhere near as simple as you saying to yourself "I shouldn't", it can be a real uphill journey. They should understand that.
And there's no timescale or schedule on when you "should" be able to "manage without it"/when the urges "should" be bearable...........it's not a matter of x months or x amount of sessions...........as long as it takes, the main thing is you're working on it with your T and honesty matters in that.
It isn't a failure if you've slipped, it can more so mean that you and they aren't quite there on the coping strategies, or in dealing with any underlying issues yet............so they need to know that to support you better with them.

But I'm real sorry you've had such a bad week, I completely understand it can be so hard. Still in you wanting/trying to stop it can make a massive difference in itself...........I know it might not work all the time but...........It can sometimes be as much about doing the best you can do, and you know we're here to support you in that as well.



Alison

[amayastar]

Thanks guys.

[Ad Intra]

I agree with you, it's terrible. Often victims of SI are not given the respect and humanity they deserve when dealing with withdraw. I hope posting on PC will help. At best all you can do is fight the feelings. Cutting is a battle and i wish you the best

[Fuzzybear]