[lunatic soul]

Have you ever get in trouble because of this? Did it change something?
Just interesting to know.

I got in really bad trouble at my working place. And lost my psychiatrist.
I sweared myself i will never do it again, of corse it's hard.

What about others?

[Mike_J]

I have gotten in trouble for doing it, not later on because of the scars.

[Victoria'smom]

Have you ever get in trouble because of this? Did it change something? I almost got kicked out of the house. It cemented that I was no longer "Dad's little girl"

[Just keep swimming]

Originally Posted by lunatic soul

Have you ever get in trouble because of this? Did it change something?
Just interesting to know.

I got in really bad trouble at my working place. And lost my psychiatrist.
I sweared myself i will never do it again, of corse it's hard.

What about others?

I worry about leaving obvious scars but I've never gotten in trouble for it.

How did you lose your psychiatrist? Because you lost your job or because he or she refused to work with you. This kind of worries me because that's a big fear of mine; I worry that I'm too messed up for people to want to deal with me. I'm trying to trust that I can tell my pdoc and therapist when I get into a really bad place, but I worry about their reactions sometimes. The first time I dissociated in front of my t, I was sure he was going to drop me.

[Ad Intra]

I've been dealing with SI since I was 13 (this was 2006). Normally when I would cut I would be very careful and do well in hiding it, but something happened and I cut my wrist one night (I was 14). I'm not sure if it was a cry for help or if I was too upset to think about where I was cutting. However this lead to my grandmother finding out about the SI and she was mean about it. She called the scar a sign of of my stupidity.
On the other hand, I don't scar well. I would cut myself and within four months the scar would be gone (I'm very pale). Back in 2009 I told my parents about the cutting and they believed me at first. I promised not to cut and I didn't for a while. Then one day my step-mom asked to see my scars. At this point I hadn't cut for a couple months so my scars were almost gone. She saw no scars and used this as reason to believe I was lying about the SI
Most mostly problems have been related to my grandmother eventually seeing my scars (like she did in February of this year).

[lunatic soul]

Originally Posted by Just keep swimming

I worry about leaving obvious scars but I've never gotten in trouble for it.

How did you lose your psychiatrist? Because you lost your job or because he or she refused to work with you. This kind of worries me because that's a big fear of mine; I worry that I'm too messed up for people to want to deal with me. I'm trying to trust that I can tell my pdoc and therapist when I get into a really bad place, but I worry about their reactions sometimes. The first time I dissociated in front of my t, I was sure he was going to drop me.

I didn;t lose my job, I almost lost, I got conversations with my bosses about it and they asked me to see pdoc. Now everyone knows I'm suicidal. Great.

I lost my T because I cut myself after sessions and he was afraid I could kill myself because our sessions destroys me. He was mad at me. I think he didn't want to be responsible for what I did. I was stupid acting this way, he told me thousand times I must go to psych ward but never put me there.
Now our relationships are okay. I made a mistake.

I'm sure you won't lose your T or pdoc if you told him/her about it, it's their job to help you with this I never had problems with that except when I got out of control and as I said I cut myself and overdosed after sessions, so he has a reason to kick me, yours doesn;t have, you need to talk about it to get better

[elin95]

well there was this woman and she saw the cuts on my wrist and never spoke to me again

never got in trouble for it.

but no one's their to care anyway- so a lot of the time i can just come up with excuses

[Just keep swimming]

Thanks. I feel bad whenever I get in a bad place, like I've done something wrong. I'm afraid that if it happens too much, my t will get tired of me. Maybe because I've spent my whole life not telling anyone. It still feels like I'm not supposed to tell anyone and instead just pull myself out of it and not let anyone notice. Your encouragement to go ahead and be honest means a lot to me.

I know you're right. I just need to hear it a lot.

[tealBumblebee]

Not real trouble. My OBGYN discovered some scars that hadn't yet finished healing. We had to have a talk in his office about it. He put it in my chart because he thought GP should know about it (though he hasn't mentioned it honestly). He put in a psych referral (which I guess I talked him into canceling because they haven't called). And now he just looks at me all nervously on top of his natural awkwardness lol. It's great.

nope didnt get in trouble.

[brokengirl1980]

Never really got in trouble but have been "talked to" about it. I work in health care and have to wear short sleeves for infection control purposes. There are lots of scars on my arms and I used to feel really self conscious about them. The only time I've been talked to by my supervisor is when I've had fresh cuts that have been seen (changing for theatre etc). I do worry about a patient bringing them up but this hasn't happened as yet. I think if people know what they are they don't ask and if they do ask I can lie.

[ArielHoney]

I got in trouble a ton for my scars. My parents always yelled at me if they saw them. Once, I was caring for my SI wound, and my mom walked into my room without knocking and it was stitches worthy, so she took me to the ER and yelled at me the whole time! Saying I was stupid and I was just looking for attention. My dad did the same when I got home and said I needed to get locked up. It was awful. It made me want to cut more. They don't understand getting into trouble about this only makes things worse.

[The_little_didgee]

I never got into trouble but I was judged. People ran and psychiatrists didn't want to deal with the behavior. My experimentation with self-injury was very isolating. It never helped me so I quit.