[chasms]

Okay. I need some advice. I'm almost 19 and I started self harm when i was 13. There have been periods where i stop but it has been constant for the past year because that was when my mental health took a total drop again and it hasn't gotten better. I see a pdoc, a therapist and i go to group once a week. im trying to get better but it's hard...

back story (maybe triggering?):
when i was younger i would cut on my arms but never hard enough to leave meaningful scars. then i cut my thighs for a long time, then stopped, and started cutting there a year ago again.
my parents knew about my self harm when i was 13 and 14 but then, they somehow thought i stopped and it really hasnt been brought up since then. i didnt get any treatment though. i started getting treatment in June of 2014. they dont think i self harm. even though i have been avidly doing it on my legs all summer-winter. recently i started doing it on my arms. within the last month or so? i have done it a lot. cut over healing cuts, so it is like a cross hatch aha. so it looks pretty brutal. on both arms. one arm it is all the way down. i really have never cut on my arms besides random ones so it seemed inconspicuous. but i resorted to it bc the sensation is better than on my legs.

i need some help on how to tell my parents. i know they will eventually see my arms, i will try to hide until they are healed at least then i can just say it is a thing of the past (probably a lie). when the time comes, should i just randomly where a short sleeve shirt? i cant just come out and say it to them. i have a very hard time talking to them about my mental health and i keep as much from them as possible. im scared they would start checking my body for cuts. i dont want them to be invasive or pry. i was thinking of having them talk to my psych about it so i dont have to say it. i would be most comfortable with that but idk how to deal with them after. i dont want them to feel bad for me.

[ThisWayOut]

I have used my T to help tell people in my life about stuff. It has worked out well. T helped me answer questions they had, and kept things "safer"...
Sorry you are struggling with this right now. Hope your parents can be supportive.

you could write a letter to them, or tell them 'I need to tell you something'. they won't be angry.