[agma]

It was been 20 months since I last SI'ed. While I'm so happy about making it that long SI free, there are days that the urges are strong and it can be a real struggle not to give in. I keep thinking that someday the urges will be no more than a fleeting thought, but that day definitely hasn't come.

Be proud of yourself. 20 months without! That's quite the accomplishment.

20 months is incredible! i don't know if the urges ever stop, but i think they do get less and less.

[Fuzzybear]

[i dont matter]

First, let me say congratulations to you on a very impressive accomplishment. Twenty months is great.

As for how long will the urges continue?? Your question reminded me of something. I was at my grand-fathers 90th birthday party, one of his sons playfully asked him "At what age do you stop noticing the pretty girls" without missing a beat he replied "you have to ask someone a lot older than me".



Point being, I think this will always be with us to some degree. Not much different than the alcoholic.

[Living Dead Guy]

Congratulations on 20 months thats something to celebrate.

As far as will the urges ever stop, well that's different for everyone. I went 10 years without cutting then about 6 months ago relapsed. During those 10 years there were periods that I hardly ever thought about it, then I would go through weeks and even months were it was all I could think about. I would have my wife lock everything away so that I couldn't then work down the list of alternatives to SI that I found on this site. Its important however if you do relapse to accept it and jump back up on the wagon again.

At the worst times I found going to AA helped, SI seems remarkably similar to alcoholism and no one but my sponsor knew that I was there for SI and not drinking.

[SoupDragon]

Well done. For me the urges come and go, but like an addiction, if I give into them then they get more powerful.