Showing T SI

secretgalaxy · Mar 31, 2015 at 10:12 AM

Anyone shows their T their SI? Do you show them while they are fresh or only scars?

With my old T she would ask if I have done anything and if I did she would ask to see if they were in a place where she could (arms) and I would let her see them.

My new T doesn't know that I relapsed but I'm pretty sure she will know this session today, but I don't know if I want her to see them because...

They've gotten worse and I don't want to stop

05:27 PM

I've shown my T photographs of the scars.

Possible trigger:

My SI-method of choice was to carve words into my skin (the skin of my thigh) with a knife.

I sent her the photographs per email, with a note that I sent them in case she was curious what it looked like but that she shouldn't feel obligated to look at them if she didn't want to/felt uncomfortable.

Mar 31, 2015 at 02:27 PM

yeah i showed her.

tealBumblebee · 05:28 PM

I've shown her via photos off of my phone. She's seen pretty much every area on my legs, all when they were old and once that was "fresh enough" to still have visible blood.

I've shown her healing carving in my upper arm.

And, I spazzed out a few months ago and did some pretty extreme cuts in another area and I showed her that via photo during a little break down and they were 'next day' photos.

i dont matter · Apr 01, 2015 at 09:10 AM

My therapist asked to see the marks one time. It was embarrassing to me personally and I felt that the marks that I had that day were somehow "not good enough".....

secretgalaxy · Apr 01, 2015 at 07:40 PM

I don't think I'll ever be able to show my new T my SI. She overreacted when I told her relapsed and I lost my trust.

With my old T I didn't like her seeing them because like IDM, I felt they were never good enough. Sometimes I found myself SIing more because I wanted them to be "enough" as she started making me show her.

Since I cut on my arms mostly and rarely on my hips, I have not needed to do photographs but that's a good idea. Plus through email, you aren't there while their looking,making it less embarrassing.

Espresso · Apr 01, 2015 at 08:47 PM

They've asked, but I've never shown the marks because they weren't easily accessible.

skyxblue · Apr 01, 2015 at 11:26 PM

A couple have asked but only if I was comfortable in having them see. They have been the only two T's that understood SI. I had a pdoc accuse me of SI'ing when I wasn't and wanted to see. That was the last time I was really honest with her.

SoupDragon · Apr 02, 2015 at 09:43 AM

No have never showed them and can't see that I would. They feel too personal or maybe shameful.

Fuzzybear · Apr 02, 2015 at 02:09 PM

same as Soup..

Apr 02, 2015 at 03:10 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by i dont matter

My therapist asked to see the marks one time. It was embarrassing to me personally and I felt that the marks that I had that day were somehow "not good enough".....

oh yes, i felt

Possible trigger:

my scars weren't deep enough and there wasn't enough of them

ThisWayOut · Apr 08, 2015 at 05:40 PM

when I was SI'ing on my arms, sometimes my T would ask, and I would show her. I was always really embarassed... Then I started SI'ing in harder to access places, so only Dr's have seen them. Occasionally, a new T will ask to see my scars. I show my arm with the disclaimer that they are old, healed scars, and that the other areas are worse... I never take pics, nor would I be able to. I would be too worried someone else would see it. As much as my SI helps me, I don;t necessarily ever want anyone else to see.

secretgalaxy · Apr 08, 2015 at 06:00 PM

I could never take a picture of them because I am too scared that someone else would see them.

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Anonymous100185 Guest Posts: n/a	Mar 31, 2015 at 02:27 PM #3 yeah i showed her.
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i dont matter Grand Member Member Since Jul 2014 Location: Wisconsin Posts: 761 9 338 hugs given	Apr 01, 2015 at 09:10 AM #5 My therapist asked to see the marks one time. It was embarrassing to me personally and I felt that the marks that I had that day were somehow "not good enough".....
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Espresso Poohbah Member Since Dec 2013 Location: United States Posts: 1,432 10 368 hugs given	Apr 01, 2015 at 08:47 PM #7 They've asked, but I've never shown the marks because they weren't easily accessible.
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SoupDragon Elder Member Since Oct 2010 Location: in a cave Posts: 6,977 13 1,099 hugs given	Apr 02, 2015 at 09:43 AM #9 No have never showed them and can't see that I would. They feel too personal or maybe shameful. __________________ Soup
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Fuzzybear Wisest Elder Ever Member Since Nov 2002 Location: Cave. Posts: 96,411 (SuperPoster!) 21 81.4k hugs given	Apr 02, 2015 at 02:09 PM #10 same as Soup.. __________________
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secretgalaxy Veteran Member Member Since Aug 2014 Location: USA Posts: 650 9 672 hugs given	Apr 08, 2015 at 06:00 PM #13 I could never take a picture of them because I am too scared that someone else would see them. __________________ I appreciate your help.... But even you can't save me from myself. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Med cocktail: Geodon 40 mg Dapakote 1500 mg
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