[RenouncedTroglodyte]

Hey everyone! (Absolute trigger)

I want some recognition from my family, and I want someone to care for me. More than once, I have tried to break my hand. When I get very depressed or angry, I punch the floor or the wall as hard as I can tolerate. Some bruises, but not a snapped bone at all. I always fantasize about me being in a hospital with people visiting me to make sure I'm okay, and actually feel some love at last. I try to find the most minimal of all excuses when I feel the slightest of pains, so that I can see how my family would react.

I will probably not end up breaking some bones intentionally, but I am surely hoping for an accident to happen or so.

[Ruftin]

(((RT))) I'm so sorry you are having such a bad day today. Please PM me and tell me what's going on.

[Fizzyo]

((((RT))))

you're treating your body in a way as to suggest it is of no value. this assumption is wrong. you DO matter and your body IS precious. you are not worthless

[Fuzzybear]

Maybe, those who treat you as if you are "worthless", are the "worthless" ones...

[ThisWayOut]

is there another way you can find out whether they care?
I know I often get the thought in my head tha "genuine" caring comes from being hurt. My T tries to help me see that I have people in my life that genuinely care about me without me being abused or hurt...
I hope you can get that reassurance without having to harm yourself.
Have you addressed this with a T at all?