[Macwoods]

Soon ill be alone. Like ashes getting blown in the wind

Originally Posted by Macwoods

Soon ill be alone. Like ashes getting blown in the wind

why?

what's wrong..

[Frankbtl]

Hi Macwoods,
It sounds like you're going through a hard time right now, but here's one place you don't have to be alone
So do you want to let us in just a little bit more..........if you could tell us just a little more about what you're going through right now??
Maybe we could help a little??

Alison

[Fizzyo]

((((((((Macwoods)))))))) if you can reach out more,please do. We are interested, you do matter.

[Crazy Hitch]

May you find some comfort Macwoods

[Fizzyo]

(((((((((((Macwoods)))))))))))

[Macwoods]

Stressed. So stressed. Not good enough

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[Fizzyo]

Originally Posted by Macwoods

Stressed. So stressed. Not good enough

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I have some understanding, it's so stressful when everything you do isn't good enough. You're a human being and in my opinion, that alone makes you valuable and worth knowing. I really hope you find some support and someone who feels you're good enough for them even when you don't.

[Macwoods]

Thank you

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[Macwoods]

Im tired. I havent slept in 3 days.. To the point im falling asleep on the road. But no one sees that. I have to drive my son to his grandmother so she can watch him. I work from330 to midnight. Im just tired

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[Frankbtl]

Hi Macwoods, it sounds like you have a lot of pressure on you, right now??
But is it the expectations of others, or the expectations you have of yourself that make you feel "not good enough"?? Because sometimes there is only so much you can do/be, especially when you're struggling.
And sounds like you need a bit of a break. Is there anyone e.g. your sons grandmother, friend, T, doctor you could open up a bit more to, to get a bit more support???
Although we're here to listen, to try to help too.

Alison

[Macwoods]

I started counseling 3 times a week. Umm i dont have many friends and they to busy. Just to talk i tried to talk to my sister but she done w my depressive moods and that im not the only one w problems. I feel alone. Even my boyfriend is to busy w his games or phone to pay attention to me. Everyone criticize me constantly. Im fed up really.

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[Frankbtl]

Hi Macwoods, nevermind the feeling that you're "not good enough", I'd say you have a right to criticize them!!
You're having a hard time and by the sounds of it they aren't much support, which I'd hope they would be
Just remember with their criticism though.......it doesn't always have to be true. Lots of reasons why people might be critical, and lots of reasons why they may unfairly criticize someone.
As for your friends though, if they're busy a lot, do you think they really know just how hard it is for you..........maybe if they did know more they might make more time, be more understanding/supportive???
Good that you've started counseling though!! Sometimes it can be a longish process, but it can sometimes be well worth it. So really good move.

Alison

[Macwoods]

Thank you. Yea they know. They told me to get over it.. Lol. Im trying alot to keep it altogether

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[Fizzyo]

Tough for you or what!we're listening.

[Frankbtl]

Hi Macwoods, well that says a lot more about them than about you then
Some people either have a very "limited view" on friendships, or on other peoples difficulties.
Maybe you might want to keep them as friends to enjoy more of the "better times" with them (??) or maybe you could get them to help you with a little "practical" support/help even, but right now it sounds like you need more than them.
And the trying to keep it all together.........again maybe seeking outside support, maybe spending more time/attention on yourself to make it just a little easier to do that, maybe just focusing on one day at a time could help, maybe sharing with us could help a bit/allow you not to "have to bottle up" as much/to "let off steam"??
But glad you're with us.

Alison

[Macwoods]

Its ok...im use to it

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[Macwoods]

Thank you. I just fee like a burden. I been called that alot. I been trying to make sure im not crossing any boundaries with people. But thats walking on egg shells

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[Frankbtl]

Hi Macwoods, maybe you've been called that because they don't want to (for whatever their reasons!!) help that much, but them not wanting to help that much doesn't need to make you a burden...........that's about them, not about you.
I am sorry they don't seem very empathetic though
And the people you have to walk on eggshells around, well I'd say you may need to try to minimise your time with them, right now. It sounds like you have enough to cope with without the stress of trying not to say/do something to make other people "comfortable".
But at least here/with us you can speak your mind.

Alison

[Macwoods]

Had a break down

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[Macwoods]

I tried to express my feelings and got laugh at

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[Fizzyo]

[Macwoods]

Need all the love

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[Frankbtl]

Hi Macwoods,

Well we aren't going to be laughing at you here if you want to express you feelings



Alison

[Macwoods]

We was supposed to go out on a date. You kno. Of course we had the baby. The baby wouldnt stop crying so we had to stop our date short. Now i find something to cook. I might go get more clonazepam or something. Bc my calm is slipping. I just wanted a day. I been w my son who i love. Everyday for months. No peace. Now im just really disappointed because i have social anxiety and gad so now i gotta go alone. And all i wanted was to spend time with my boyfriend since we hardly ever get to do something. And all

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