[SparkyCat]

Not quite sure whether to put this here or in School/Study issues but wound up going with here.

I'm going back to uni (yay). My self-harm is way, way, way down on where it was (also yay). Those who have seen me regularly can see how much progress I've made in the last 6 months. It's less than 2 weeks until the 6-month anniversary of my discharge from hospital but something that happened then is being held against me and it has me scared. I had a Needs Assessment, where it is established what support I need/can have to go back to Uni. Without discussing it with me first, she included in the report references and recommendation based on an incident of self-harm that happened in hospital when I was under extreme stress - where the hospitals involved had broken their own rules - and using it to say that I'm not safe in a Chemistry lab. It's ridiculous, everyone that knows me knows it's ridiculous but yet it has me freaked. I'm now being dragged in front of a Fitness to Study board because of that and because I'm still "actively" self-harming (less than 2 or 3 times a week, and not badly). I know if they listen to me they'll realise that I'd never harm in labs because the only places I ever have are home and hospital. But the worry is that all the work I've put in will go to pieces. It seems no matter how far I come, hospital will keep on coming back to haunt me.

Help? Feeling like all my progress has been pointless and the urges are stronger than they have been in ages. The assessor alleged she knew about BPD but if she truly understood it she would not have dumped this on me without discussing and explaining it with me. She's done her risk assessments but not done one for the risk of dumping this on me impersonally and without warning.

[CANDC]

Glad you are going back to university and have self harm under more control.

This may have some helpful tips to get self harm totally on the backburner.
https://www.google.com/url?q=http://...GtLlzfGxFF4aPQ

Not sure how the best way to handle needs assessment. How about talking to your therapist about this.

[PinkFlamingo99]

This sounds really discriminatory to me. Does your university have an ombudsman? They are there to help protect your rights.

[SparkyCat]

Originally Posted by CANDC

Glad you are going back to university and have self harm under more control.

This may have some helpful tips to get self harm totally on the backburner.
https://www.google.com/url?q=http://...GtLlzfGxFF4aPQ

Not sure how the best way to handle needs assessment. How about talking to your therapist about this.

I intend to speak to her, but I'm not due to see her for over a week (because of how much progress I've made, stupidly) and she's only in work on Monday next week. I'm emailing her as I do regularly and I'll mention it then but she doesn't tend to reply, it just prepares her for the meeting a bit better. Thank you for the link though - it's all stuff I knew about before, but it's always nice to read through others' experiences.

Originally Posted by PinkFlamingo99

This sounds really discriminatory to me. Does your university have an ombudsman? They are there to help protect your rights.

It's not so much discrimination as an over-reaction. She has a legal duty to keep me safe and on the face of it, without asking me more questions, yes I can see that my particular method of harming might seem like it poses a risk . It's not that I don't understand why she's done it but just wished she'd asked me about it and brought it up with me rather than going into "omg panic" mode. It's causing so much stress and it's not what I need right now.