[nicoleb2]

I am having a hard time fighting the urge to self-harm.

I deal with so much chronic pain and I am just tired of living this way.

You'd thnk that since I am in pain, the urges wouldn't be there, but they are.
I feel like self-harming, at least I have control over the pain when I don't have control over anything else.

I don't know how to deal with this

[CANDC]

Nicole, i am sorry you are struggling right now, but kudos for hanging in there.

I know how controlling things helps me cope. That is why I use this breathing exercise to keep from focusing on those wild thoughts. Here it is.

Breathe naturally while silently counting 1 on the inhale, 2 on the exhale, 3 on the inhale...continuing up to 10. Then start at 1 again. The mind can only focus well on one thing at a time, so this helps me relax and refocus.

Here is an article describing some of the myths of self harm and some coping methods that may be of interest.
Self-Harm: The Myths & the Facts | Embracing Balance

[i dont matter]

I know this is simplistic.... but you could TRY listening to some comedy on Pandora. I find the positive distraction can be helpful.

Best wishes.

[LettinG0]

((((Nicole)))))

Keep fighting......is there anything else you can "control" that gives you that sense of power but is not self-destructive?

[Fuzzybear]