I've had a pretty good day. Well I thought so anyway. I'm kind of seeing this guy who seemed really sweet and nice and understanding etc. but today I have seen a different side of him. It just reinforces my opinion of men tbh, only after one thing etc...

But yeah, this whole situation makes me want to cut. It's stupid Really. I know that. I know it doesn't make sense and it's a bad idea but it doesn't change the urges. Don't know what to do

[TheOriginalMe]

Are you on your own right now, if you are on your own, is there anyone you can contact to keep you company?

Do any distractions work for you?

Don't let that a**hole get inside your head and undo all the hard work you have done.

I suppose I should say, contact the crisis team that is what they are there for yadda yadda yadda.

I'm on my own yeah. I stayed up with my parents for a bit but now they have gone to bed. Called a friend and it was good to chat with her but guess it hasn't helped that much. She just confirmed what I was thinking really. I started colouring when I was in hospital so maybe I could try that.

Don't wanna give in to the urges but at the same time it is so so appealing!

[TheOriginalMe]

Give the colouring a go, or maybe a hot bath and a warm drink.

Maybe you need a voodoo doll of the guy you mentioned and you could stick pins in him instead.

You're not stupid for feeling the way you do and you have recognised the trigger and are doing your best to manage things.

Haha I like the idea of the voodoo doll! In the end I got tired enough to sleep without doing anything. So that's one more day I can add (if I could remember how long it has been in the first place)

Well done, SW! How are you doing now?

I'm ok I guess, I'm not really sure. A bit meh. Still getting urges which I'm trying to ignore...