[lozza89]

I was going so well with not self-harming (often going months or longer without hurting myself. But right now I just need it, I need to be hurt and punished. I just need to be hurt. I only saw my therapist on Wednesday but have had daily contact with her since. She has been texting me daily asking how I am and if I am OK.. this scares me, I know she is worried but she shouldn't be because I am 'fine'.. right??

The cuts haven't been that bad, well I don't think so anyway but they have been bleeding too much but that means nothing as I know one of my meds makes it harder for blood to clot.

I just can't stop myself from hurting me right now but I don't know why I just need to be hurt and punished I just need to be. It scares me. I just can't stop anymore. I just need to be dead. I can't fight this anymore.

[C2015]

I know how you feel. I had a 3 day anxiety attack last week for the first time in six months I cut myself. The next day I regretted it. Maybe this will help you. My Aunt said something to me and it's because of her I went 6 months without cutting myself. My Aunt said I didn't need any more scars on my body I don't have to have.

[lozza89]

Originally Posted by C2015

I know how you feel. I had a 3 day anxiety attack last week for the first time in six months I cut myself. The next day I regretted it. Maybe this will help you. My Aunt said something to me and it's because of her I went 6 months without cutting myself. My Aunt said I didn't need any more scars on my body I don't have to have.

Thanks for replying.

I don't know. I use to be stronger than this but now I'm just weak and pathetic. I just don't know what to do anymore. My arms are both screwed and of course now it's coming into the warmer months

I just don't know what to do anymore. I've had enough and I don't have it in me to fight anymore.

[Fuzzybear]