[SheHulk07]

***Trigger warning***

I figured this is more the appropriate place to post this.

Possible trigger:

2 weeks ago when I saw my T, I expressed my increased SI and that I have a bottle of pills from my surgery 3 weeks ago. He asked me if I'd be okay with throwing them away. I actually agreed, but this week has been difficult and I've been holding onto them. He's offered in the past for me to give him my pills or razors, so I am thinking of maybe bringing them to my session on Thursday to help me get rid of them. But then I would know that they would really be gone.

I wouldn't - if I gave away my knife (example) I'd just buy another one. The one I have now isn't very sharp - if I bought another one it would probably a ceramic blade again. Safest for me is to have things that aren't too bad within reach, so I don't feel the need to go and get something that is more dangerous.

[SheHulk07]

I wouldn't hand over my razors, though he's offered that to me before too. I'm talking about pills...which are a lot harder for me to get. I only have them due to having surgery.

[PinkFlamingo99]

I had the exact same issue with painkillers I had from surgery. I was taking small overdoses of them. I gave them to her. I also had a ton of lyrica leftover because I stopped takingbit but didn't want to tell my pdoc, I was taking about half a month's worth at once a few times to knock myself out for a long time. I gave her that too. I give her my razors too though. She asks for them now. I buy more when I cut but it does help not having them in the house. There were a ton of times I would have cut if I had them in the house. It's hard for me to get them after work since I finish at midnight.

[random_emotion]

I save all my old meds but if you are worried about what you might do with them than I suggest turning them in but only if you want to

I remember a long long time ago, it was suggested that I should do that.. give up my stuff and I wouldn't have the urges anymore

but I couldn't do it. never