Not being on the Adderall makes quite a difference. A few times now I did it, I think, just because I missed it?! I've had virtually no other way to cope when I took the Adderall. Just my irrational, complicated, negative emotions. Not taking the Adderall gives my emotions a sharp edge on how I cope. I also have the unchemical(word?) freedom to do it. When I take the Rx, it just won't allow me to do it--I might want to, but I won't be able to. So until I find someone new to prescribe it and start taking it again, I may have extra (and deep) holes in my body. I'm watching one such cut now that has been open and not forming any scab for about a week and a half. It's not infected as of yet. I'm watching it and taking care of it. Sorta.

But I will go to the doctor if I need. I really don't need any more scars.