[black-roses]

I have been lately wanting to harm my sexual organs and my arms etc and then engage in sexual activity. I have been longing for a guy to

Possible trigger:

cut me a little bit and drink my blood.

who do I tell this too what am I experiencing. I've never wanted something so crazy in my life. I also don't know where I would put this thread because I don't know if it's a sexual fetish thing or if it's a submissive sexual fetish. In fact I have no idea what this is.

[-Astral-]

i have felt like that myself i have in the past done that to myself ...i know you feel like your losing you mind there is a fetish i cant remember what its called
its its part of BDSM do you have a Therapist ? would you feel ok to talk to him/her ?
sorry your feeling like this

[Skeezyks]

Hello black-roses: I don't know a lot about this in particular. But I think the only way to resolve something of this sort, to the extent it can be resolved, is to talk it through at some length with a knowledgeable therapist. If it is a true fetish, it may not go away. My understanding is that fetishes can be almost impossible to "cure". But at least talking it through may help you to feel more comfortable with it.

[PumpkinPieHead]

Perhaps, writing a story about two lovers (or more) who engage in these acts would be cathartic and even pleasurable.

Or, find a cam site and cam with someone who is good at roleplaying to enact a "fantasy" version of the type of rump in the hay you fancy.

I can't condone actually carrying it out, but, one way to circumvent the "self-harm" thing is maybe allowing your lover to drink your menstrual blood?

[black-roses]

Originally Posted by PumpkinPieHead

Perhaps, writing a story about two lovers (or more) who engage in these acts would be cathartic and even pleasurable.

Or, find a cam site and cam with someone who is good at roleplaying to enact a "fantasy" version of the type of rump in the hay you fancy.

I can't condone actually carrying it out, but, one way to circumvent the "self-harm" thing is maybe allowing your lover to drink your menstrual blood?

I have been thinking of that I know what this condition is called it's called paraphelia it's a fetish with doing dangerous sexual acts. I think it would be best for me to go to a sexual health nurse and at least have education on it to minalize the risk of me hurting myself. At least if I am educated on the facts of this a disorder I might not be as afraid of it.

[PumpkinPieHead]

I like that idea, black-roses. Good luck!

[Phreak]

Um, maybe seeing a therapist about it may be the best long term action to take?

[black-roses]

Originally Posted by Phreak

Um, maybe seeing a therapist about it may be the best long term action to take?

I really don't want too though. I don't want to talk to anyone about this it's too ****ed up.

[ickydog2006]

Through cutting I got addicted to drinking human blood. The problem with doing fantasy type stuff involving dangerous things is it can make it harder to resist going further. As much as I love drinking blood, for me, it has the same risks and consequences as abusing alcohol and drug addictions with sharing needles. Once I start, the 'need' feeling becomes so overwhelming that I'm willing to take more and more risks to get my drink of choice. I started going to a 12 step program and go to Alcoholics Anonymous (it's not like I can find a blood drinkers anonymous) and refer to it as drinking and work the steps. I'm open with my doctor and therapist and I try to stay away from triggering things that feed the blood need, because although they give me a bit of a fix, I'm an addict, and once (or a little) is never enough. I come from a long line of addicts, so I know not everyone will be as prone to addiction as I am. Just remember it's a slippery slope.

[PumpkinPieHead]

Welcome to the forum, yarddog!

Thankyou for sharing! Lots of folks are into masochism, but I think it is important here not to get carried away into addiction or self-harm, as myself and others have stressed.