[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

It has been years since I have wanted to SI but tonight .. It dould be a welcomed release. Problem is I know that release only lasts so long before it turns to guilt and then the guilt turns to depression until I either SI or attempt.

So - where do you go when you can't get away from your stressor to keep safe on a long term basis?

I just try to keep my mind busy at all costs doing anything and everything to prevent my mind from wondering and thinking about what is bothering me so much.

Sorry if I'm not more of a help to you tonight. I'm not always the best at "touchy feely" type stuff but I'm trying at least.

I hope you start feeling better soon!

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by DarknessIsMyFriend

I just try to keep my mind busy at all costs doing anything and everything to prevent my mind from wondering and thinking about what is bothering me so much.

Sorry if I'm not more of a help to you tonight. I'm not always the best at "touchy feely" type stuff but I'm trying at least.

I hope you start feeling better soon!

You are doing a lot. I am just really messed up tonight. You are helping though.

[kitkat92]

Music or write out everything your feeling. I had/have issues with my "father" And on my computer I have a 2 page paper explaining why and it actually helps. Obviously I'm not planning on giving it to him because it would break him but sometimes you just need to get it out and then toss it. My mom also said to just look up and take a deep breath and I got this. Don't look down and don't look backwards look forward and up and you can go anywhere you want. And her saying has helped me. I hope it will help you

[AmandaBroken]

You need to build a core support group. Without that, your chances of failure go up.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by AmandaBroken

You need to build a core support group. Without that, your chances of failure go up.

You do realize I said it has been years - as in 10yrs or more (don't remember exactly tbh but ik at least that many. No reason to come on here telling me about failure. I was asking about one night I had strong urges bc of things going on. I made it through that night. I do find your comment offensive.

[AmandaBroken]

Originally Posted by Crypts_Of_The_Mind

You do realize I said it has been years - as in 10yrs or more (don't remember exactly tbh but ik at least that many. No reason to come on here telling me about failure. I was asking about one night I had strong urges bc of things going on. I made it through that night. I do find your comment offensive.

I'm sorry I meant you no harm... One Night or a Thousand and One Nights having a strong support group is important.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by AmandaBroken

I'm sorry I meant you no harm... One Night or a Thousand and One Nights having a strong support group is important.

You can't depend on a support system all your life. At some point, you have to learn to fly on your own.

Of course, if ten years from now, you still wish to need to rely on a strong support system to keep you afloat instead of learning how to do that for yourself - that's on you. I prefer independence over dependence.

Take care.

Originally Posted by Crypts_Of_The_Mind

You can't depend on a support system all your life. At some point, you have to learn to fly on your own.

Of course, if ten years from now, you still wish to need to rely on a strong support system to keep you afloat instead of learning how to do that for yourself - that's on you. I prefer independence over dependence.

Take care.

Spoken like a true survivor

Couldn't agree more with this.

Originally Posted by Crypts_Of_The_Mind

You can't depend on a support system all your life. At some point, you have to learn to fly on your own.

Of course, if ten years from now, you still wish to need to rely on a strong support system to keep you afloat instead of learning how to do that for yourself - that's on you. I prefer independence over dependence.

Take care.

Hey Crypts ...... you've offered to help me, when you didn't have too (and when i don't deserve it). Are you going to be ok tonight???? I ask bc I am tied up tonight but IF YOU CAN MAKE IT THROUGH TONIGHT, I'll offer the same unconditional listening/help tomorrow that you offered me today. Please be ok tonight. Please, please.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by always_why

Hey Crypts ...... you've offered to help me, when you didn't have too (and when i don't deserve it). Are you going to be ok tonight???? I ask bc I am tied up tonight but IF YOU CAN MAKE IT THROUGH TONIGHT, I'll offer the same unconditional listening/help tomorrow that you offered me today. Please be ok tonight. Please, please.

Yes I will be fine - this post was from last night. Amanda reopened it with her response about possible failure... I am good now ❤

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

PS You do deserve help when you need it ❤

Originally Posted by Crypts_Of_The_Mind

PS You do deserve help when you need it ❤

i wish i believed you.

But mainly I'm glad you are OK.
As long as everybody else is ok, i don't care what happens to me.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by always_why

i wish i believed you.

But mainly I'm glad you are OK.
As long as everybody else is ok, i don't care what happens to me.

I care *hug*

Originally Posted by Crypts_Of_The_Mind

I care *hug*

Why?????

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by always_why

Why?????

Because you are worth caring about