I had a good run for not doing si but

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that run has ended tonight

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I cut tonight after avoiding it despite the fact I want to stop it felt so good

This will never end, will it?

[SlumberKitty]

(((whispershadow)))

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

It will get better! It's awful to think of you hurting yourself, dear one

[MtnTime2896]

It can end. What they tell people in AA is picking up a drink doesn't make you a failure, don't get discouraged, just start the steps again.

Do I deserve to stop doing this to myself? Or am I a dirty scumbag who only ever deserves to get hurt, no appeal?

[MtnTime2896]

I believe you deserve the best. You've helped me and so many others on here. That's a good person in my eyes.

I said this on a different forum to a friend of mine:

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The abusive voices are being mean and I'm scared of them they say I killed poor Ebony and her death lies at my door, nobody else's and they say if the RSPCA find out what happened I'll have Tigger taken away and never be allowed another pet ever again

What I use to self harm is also whispering my name and the abusive voices want me to obey the self harm tool

If I adopt Dolly, the abusive voices say I'll kill her as well like I killed poor sweetpea Ebony

The bad stuff that happened to Ebony was all my fault

[MtnTime2896]

Do you have headphones? Maybe playing some music will drown the voices out a little, hopefully.

Can you walk or exercise? Sometimes working out the stress will lesson the voices a bit.

And, while it's incredibly unhealthy, have you tried smoking cigarettes? It's always made my voices more tolerable.

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

Do you have headphones? Maybe playing some music will drown the voices out a little, hopefully.

Can you walk or exercise? Sometimes working out the stress will lesson the voices a bit.

And, while it's incredibly unhealthy, have you tried smoking cigarettes? It's always made my voices more tolerable.

I have never smoked, some of my family are asthmatic and poor furbaby Ebony was severely asthmatic so me smoking is not a option

I watched a lot of youtube poop as a distraction, just about to put music on

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by whispershadow

I have never smoked, some of my family are asthmatic and poor furbaby Ebony was severely asthmatic so me smoking is not a option

I watched a lot of youtube poop as a distraction, just about to put music on

Good. Let me know if it helps.

Some of the music is helping, I find this song soothing for some reason

[MtnTime2896]

I like it a lot. Thanks for sharing.

Seriously I just want ONE ****ING THING to go right!!!!!! Is this too much to ask???????? The girl cat (Dolly) who I was going to meet has been reserved by someone else

And there's nobody else suitable in rescue, I just been looking

[MtnTime2896]

I'm so sorry, whisper.

[SlumberKitty]

(((whispershadow)))

Maybe the radioactive banana skins are plotting against me to stop me getting the right friend for Tigger .....