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Hallucinations suck.
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For how long, and how often, have you been having them? |
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I'm so sorry you are struggling, Slumberkitty. Please know that you have a cheer squad here on PC. Hugs, caring thoughts and prayers for you.
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I get visual hallucinations all the time...maybe 5 days out of the week. The things I see vary, but these specific ones I've been having the past couple of days. I saw my Pdoc last night who wasn't too concerned about them. He's more concerned about auditory hallucinations which I get less of. I don't see my T until April 15 so I just gotta deal with them as best as I can. Thanks for caring. Hugs Kit
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I'm really glad that you talked to your Pdoc about them.
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Actually acknowledging them helps. It sort of takes some of the power away from them. Reality testing. Doing something comforting or soothing. Changing my environment--like going for a walk if the hallucinations are on the walls. Journaling about them. Talking it through with my T but I won't see her until April 15. Praying. Getting distracted by something else that requires a lot of concentration like a puzzle or something. Making myself use the five senses (or several of them) to pay attention to my surroundings that I know are real. Things like that. So I do have some tools to combat them.
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((((((((( SlumberKitty )))))))))
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I was supposed to see my therapist today but she had a family emergency and had to cancel. I haven't seen her since March 18th and now I'm not going to see her until May 6th. I want to SH right now. My emotions are all over the place and I want to cry. She had been pushing me last time to extend out my not SH-ing even after Lent. But now that I'm not going to see her until after that, I'm worried I'm going to relapse and I'm going to relapse spectacularly. I hadn't decided if I was going to push out my date of not SH-ing but now it's that much harder to. Kit
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Oh dear that is unfortunate, no chance to see her until May 6th.
(((((Kit)))))) Maybe journaling or calling a listening line or using something online like 7 Cups could help? |
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Thanks Bill3.
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So far I am not figuring out what it is I need to figure out this week. I'm working on deciding if I should push out my time on not SH-ing after Lent. Part of me wants to not commit to more time because I feel unwell, and I feel undone, and losing that coping mechanism, well, it's just not going to be productive if I don't have something to replace SH (and so far I don't). On the other hand, part of me wants to extend the time out because I feel like if I SH, I'm not going to be able to do just a little bit, I'm going to end up back at the hospital for stitches, and that's just embarrassing and expensive. But whenever I go for what I consider to be a long time without, when I do it, I DO IT. And it's like a big mess. With Lent, I felt like I was making a promise to God and that made it feel like a concrete thing. If I just promise myself or my T, it doesn't hold the same weight for me. My parents are going to be gone a few times in the upcoming months and I know that if I am able to SH, I will do it when they are gone, so that way they won't necessarily know that I went to the hospital (I have my own insurance through my work so I'm not on theirs). So that's another reason to extend it out. I wish I could have talked this through with T on Monday, but since she had to cancel, I'm talking it through with ya'll. I still haven't come to any sort of answer, or conclusion. I'm just trying to sort out my emotions and my logic and not run out of time before making a decision. HUGS Kit
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Here are two possible ideas.
1. You could speak here or (or perhaps on another thread) about various options people use to substitute for SH. It is possible that a fruitful discussion could ensure, in which you make progress on finding a substitute. 2. Eastertide is a time of resurrection and new life. While Lent is/was a time to give up things such as SH, perhaps Eastertide is a time to embrace a new life with regard to SH. You made a Lent promise to God, maybe you could also make an Easter promise to God. For example, you could promise God to extend until your next appointment with T on May 6. Perhaps pray about what sort (if any) of Easter promise to make to God? |
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Thanks Bill, you gave me some ideas to think about/pray about. HUGS Kit
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I saw my T today. I was able to get in on a cancellation. I thought seeing my T would help me know whether or not to extend out my no SH until Pentecost. But it didn't. T didn't say. Most of me thinks I should but a little part of me thinks I shouldn't. That's the hopeless part of me. I need some encouragement to keep this up, please...thanks. hugs Kit
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Keep on keeping on Kit!
You have done great so far and are doing great! Most of you is on the right track! Hang in there, one day at a time! And: Congratulations on reaching your goal of Easter! Super well done! You can do more! One day at a time! Happy Easter! |
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Thanks Bill3....I needed that. Happy Easter to you also. Hugs Kit
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I'm going to do this. I'm committing to No SH until Pentecost. I'm gonna need everyone's support, but together I think we can do this. Hugs Kit
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You can do it!
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I wish that I had thought about doing that myself!
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