[itsjustme111]

I am lost, in a ragging current of emotions
kept inside, locked in the basement of my soul
like a frightened child I am pulled down
and am drowning in my own fears.

I see faces and hear voices but they are distant.
They are muzzled by the water that I am emersed in.
Arms reach out for me but they can not come in.
Trapped in my cell by a cold and watery shield.

I shall not weep, but I am lonely.
I shall not scream, I can not be saved.
I brought myself here, to these depths and foolishly I plunged into my own fate.

Farewell to the air, the sun and the earth.
Farewell oh water that has stolen my breath.
May the sun set up on my soul
Only to offer it a new day.

I am finding it hard to not hurt myself right now and I am trying to keep away from this behavior. I keep telling myself; You are seeing the doc in 5hrs. But it is hard. I wish I had someone to talk to. If I phone the crisis line they will have a fit. I dont trust doing that because I have been arrested under "the mental health act" before. Not Fun!!!!!!
I will be okay; just keep telling myself that.
I will talk to you all later.
itsjustme

[Rapunzel]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Hang in there. Just take it 5 minutes at a time if that's what it takes. Try to find something to keep your hands busy and out of trouble.

Do you know what an excellent writer you are? I love your poetry - it is so beautiful and expressive.

Please let us know how it went waiting for your appointment.

Rap

<font color=orange>"If a light beckons to you, follow it. If it leads you into the quagmire, you'll probably find your way out of it again; but if you don't follow it, you'll be plagued for the rest of your life by the thought that perhaps it was your star." Friedrich Hebbet</font color=orange>

[Fuzzybear]

I also think your poetry is beautiful and very expressive. Thinking of you ... (((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))

[SweetCrusader]

Great writing!

GOOD LUCK!!!!

Take care of you the best you can!!!

You can do it.

Angela (SC)

-comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable-

[SS8282]

((((((((((((((just))))))))))))))))))) I understand your pain and how hard it is to NOT SI, made that much harder when you don't have anybody to talk to. I hope you're feeling better know. Please take care. Big hugs.

[(JD)]

Hi just you have lots of poetry...words... inside don't you? I don't SI but come over every now and then to see y'all..

BTW there is a "trigger" icon you can use for notation on your posts, well there is a whole listing of different icons... down at the bottom, where the line - tab is says note and the down arrow? hit that and you will see the list... select trigger and then it will mark the post for you... not sure you knew this...

feel better.

[itsjustme111]

what is SI. what does that stand for??????
sry, a little dumb over here.

[itsjustme111]

forget it, it just clued in. SI-self injure. sry, said I was dumb