[Tammylou84]

Hi I dont know weather this is self harm or not but since being a child

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I have scratched my face ripped my hair out and punch myself when iam in a rage and I can not stop myself when I am that mad I am 35 now and still punch myself and head butt walls when iam raged even stepped myself with a screwdriver and poured boiling hot water on myself but I can not feel it ,I have scratched my face tho for a good 10 years until today which is why iam here I have scratched it that bad down one side of my face its gonna scar

,sometimes I just loose it is iam arguing with my bf and he goes on repeating himself or doesnt listen to me I fly off the handle and hurt myself I think I do this so I dont hurt him because I worry sometimes that when iam that mad I could really hurt somebody and not stop I hate being like this is there somthing wrong with me 😓

[SlumberKitty]

Yes, this is self harm. Do you have a therapist or a friend you trust that you can talk to about this? It is hard to suffer in silence and be alone. You are welcome to post here. Sometimes this board is slow and it takes some time to get responses but eventually you will get responses. I'm sorry you hurt yourself. I wouldn't say there is something wrong with you, I would say that you have a mal-adaptive coping mechanism. The good thing is you can learn other ways of coping that will help you not hurt yourself, if you want to. You aren't alone. HUGS If wanted, Kit

[Skeezyks]

Hello Tammylou: I see this is your first post here on PC. Welcome to Psych Central. And thank you for bringing your concern here to PC.

As has already been said... absolutely... what you are doing to yourself is self-injury. Other terms that would apply would include self-harm as well as self-abuse. Given all of the harm you are doing to yourself, I would think the thing to do would be to find a psychologist or a mental health therapist who can help you to understand why you are doing this to yourself & (hopefully) how to stop.

Here's a link to an article, from Psych Central's archives, where the writer talks about how she learned to stop self-harming:

How I Stopped Self-Harming

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.

[SlumberKitty]

Thanks for posting the article @Skeezyks. I found it helpful for myself as well. I hope the OP will find it helpful also. Kind of explains the journey I am on myself at the moment.