[SlumberKitty]

So this topic came up in my therapy. Well sort of in between therapy sessions. I just texted my T about it actually.

So today I am having a lot of thoughts/feelings/visions of self harm.

I *could* reach out to a couple of people. But lately when I reach out the help has been inadequate. I'm not getting whatever it is that I need (generally speaking, I'm not saying it is true of everyone I talk to). Maybe I need to be specific in what I need. But I'm not sure what I need. I'm not sure what would help. So if I am not sure, how is someone supposed to help me with this?

If I reach out and the help is inadequate then I am just going to feel worse. If, however, I reach out and it is what I need to hear, then it would be worth the risk. I just don't like these odds at the moment.

I heard somewhere that self harm lives in isolation. That when we reach out we cut off it's oxygen. But then again, there is the fear of letting go. -- Kit

[MuddyBoots]

Do you think just having some fun, lighthearted conversation with the people you can reach out would help? You could just say something like "hey, I'm having a hard time, do you think we could just chat about whatever for a bit to get my mind off of things," or however you want to word it.

Or maybe just asking to vent about it, or have a place to openly talk about it and work through why you want to self harm and come up with solutions would help and you could ask to do that?

[Breaking Dawn]

Dear Kit, God bless you, my very kind friend. I'm sorry. And I'm afraid I'm one of those who respond inadequately. I have tons of love & gratitude in my heart most of the time. But I also have tons of worry & fear, because of my past. I love these forums so much, a place where I can safely go. Kit, you are one of the reasons I feel that way.