[anyone]

I was just wondering if anyone understood about programming ? The pull to do what I'm supposed to do is starting to get out of control and getting worse as I reveal more to my counsellor. I can't go into more detail, I'm just too scared, I just wondered if anyone else understood it, at least I wouldn't feel quite so isolated.

[Kiya]

Hey - yes, i do understand. you're not alone in that. i also get that you can't say more about it... totally get it.
Welcome to the boards and feel free to post any time.

kiya

[anyone]

Thankyou Kiya, at this moment in time that means alot.

[Kiya]

i want to say more but can't seem to find words - i've sat and stared at this blank text box for 10 mintes. i remember there being info on the web about programming as well... i know i have some somewhere, but i can't get myself to find it. i think this is a good topic/thread to have going.

kiya

[anyone]

I have been trying to do research into programming but at the moment I can't concentrate enough to read it properly and there is just soooooooo much info, where do you start

On a positive note, this afternoon, for the first time in a week, the urges lifted and it felt so good, it has been a really bad week with constant flashbacks each calling me to do what I'm supposed to do. I'm not sure how but I didn't do anything, I do know that one time I really needed help, just someone to say they understood and Kiya replied, I am so grateful Kiya, thankyou.
Just a few hours of feeling 'ok' has been terrific, I'm on a high at the moment and feeling like I can take on the world, it would be wonderful if this could continue.

If we can put men on the moon, why can't we find a simple program to de-programme. Just wishful thinking

anyone

[Fuzzybear]

I think I get what you mean.....
Sorry this is so short .... Sending my support, keep posting