This is me ranting.

I am so sick of myself, and I'm really angry at myself for being such an idiot. I want to be pretty, and be able to wear shorts, and not have to wear long sleeves every day. I want to be able to feel comfortable with myself, and not be ashamed every time I look at myself and my body. This makes it that much harder for me to fit in, and I actually get mad because everyone else can wear summer clothes and I can't.

(((mandazzle)))

your not an idiot. your just hurting emotionally right now. i understand not being able to wear what you want. i cant go swimming because i'm so ashamed. and i love to swim. it just takes time. at least thats what everyone seems to say. eventually you will be comfortable with yourself. just take baby steps. starting with not calling yourself an idiot.

((((mandazzle)))

Dont be so hard on yourself hun

babyg xXx

Well I'm a competitive swimmer. You really have no idea how hard it is for me to keep up with swimming and hiding scars at the same time. Ugh.

I know EXACTLY how you feel...
It's almost summer, and everyone is wearing shorts, and tank tops...
and I can't. it's a hard thing to deal with. Meds make you not care if you hide though :P
If you ever want to talk, i'm always here...

-Vanessa