[x_BabyG_x]

For any of those who read my post about my boyfriend breaking up with me... I have to stop harming myself. Aparrently I blamed him for doing it - which I know is not the case at all, if anything, he makes it better - but I know he believed it at the time, and it hurt him.

I need to stop hurting myself now, because I'm losing everything. I need to find another way of releasing my anger (again - not at him like I did the other night). I'm throwing everything out that I use to harm and Im starting over.
I had a dream last night, that I started triggering off in front of him, and he told me that I was doing it, and like in reality, I didnt realise I was doing it and was confused. Instead of getting angry at him, the first thing I did was put my hands up to my face to scratch the hell out of it... but then I realised what I was doing and stopped and just hugged him.

I hope it stays that way

babyg xXx

[bchlyn]

((((((babyg))))))

[Clandestine]

It's good you realize that, and that you actually did an effort to stop. It happened to me before and I found it so effing hard to stop hurting myself. Good job, BabyG ;]

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[Christina86]

(((((((((babyG))))))))))))

Sorry about the boyfriend.

I'm glad you've thrown out things you could use to SI, that's an amazingly good step! Perhaps you could take up some sort of athletic sport to release anger instead? Someone recommended getting a punchbag for me... maybe that would work for you?

[Deep_Thought]

<font color="#dd0000"> Getting rid of the stuff you used to SH with is great . I know it must be hard, I always find a reason to keep stuff. I'm sorry to hear your boyfriend seems to think he's the reason behind it. Have you tried talking to him? If you have and he still thinks the same make a point of saying that you're trying to stop and say you've got rid of all the stuff.

If you ever want to talk then I'm here for you *hug*
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