[meccorad]

I cut my wrist today. I think I need to go home, but I don't know how to do this. Should I contact the US Embassy and explain that I need to get home for psychiatric care? I know I should contact my parents and ask them to come home, but I'm not telling them I did this. It will only cause panic.

There's things here that I'd have to close like bank account, deregister with the university, close my apartment contract. It's just more than I can think about right now...so If I call an Embassy can they help me?

[bchlyn]

i would think the embassy could help you... do you need medical care, right now?... where are you?... lyn

[meccorad]

I stopped the bleeding a while ago. I'm sitting in my apartment. I'm in a foreign country on a sunday so there's no school offices I could go to to ask for help...so I'm just stuck here. I have no one to talk to and I'm still just in awe that I cut myself. This is not who I am.

[bchlyn]

does your university have counseling services on campus? so they can help you right now?...lyn

[bchlyn]

what country are you in... you can google hot lines... and i am sure the embassy must have emergency contacts...lyn

[meccorad]

they're closed. And besides I'm more than certain they only speak German, which I'm not entirely fluent in and I'm not in any mental mind set to speak it properly.

[bchlyn]

the embassy is closed? or the university?... you can always go to the er... i don't know what their laws are regarding si... here it just depends on what your intention was... it's important that you stay safe... and it doesn't sound like being alone is helping you.

[meccorad]

Everything's closed. I don't even know where a hospital is around here...but I'm too afraid to go there. I've contacted someone online that I know I can talk to...so hopefully I won't do anything else stupid today...

thanks...

[bchlyn]

k stay safe

[PsyChris]

It sounds like it was just an impulse. While that impulse needs to be addressed I don't think you need to give up your university career and move back home; unless you feel like that is the best option for you.

I will be happy to give you a story that the German ER will accept to treat your wrist wounds without a psychiatric evaluation. If you are not in a good mental state right now that might not be the best thing to do right now.

If the wounds are not something that needs to be stitched, you can go out in long sleeves and buy antibacterial ointment, gauze and medical tape.

Apply the ointment to the wound, then wrap it in the sterile gauze. Don't do it tightly but just enough so that it protects the wound.

In the mean time I think you should talk to the embassy about finding mental health services in English. I know they have them near the major American military bases. If you are in a remote part of Germany it might be slightly more difficult.

[x_BabyG_x]

How are you feeling today meccorad?? I hope your ok x

[meccorad]

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I did it again. I cut over the same cut so now it's wider. I sent an email to my family asking to come home and they called me 14 times, but I didn't pick up. I'm going home ASAP, just as soon as I close all my accounts over here then I'm going home to a psychiatric hospital until I can get meds and such.

[Clandestine]

Meccorad, out of our plan eh? But your priority now is yourself. I hope your family will understand you, despite all, and actually try to listen to you first before they comment on your actions. ;[

Please stop the bleeding. Do what PsyChris said about the bleeding/wound.

I know you need people who matter to you most at times like this... I hope things get settled well. For the mean time, keep us posted and let us know you're safe.

If you're panicking again, having racing thoughts, write/type. If you feel like you need someone to talk to but there's no one out there, PM me. You're making me worried >.<

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