[meccorad]

Figured it'd put the little red X symbol just in case this freaks some people out. So as I've been coming clean with some "bad habits" of mine I figured this should be included...

There have been times when I would try to remove moles on my body buy literally pinching them off with tweezers. Particularly on days when I was just disgusted with myself. I'd pick up the tweezers find a mole on my body and then just pinch it until I felt the skin tear then pluck out the skin. As they heal they leave these divots that sorta look like chicken pock scars. Most of the times the mole does grow back within the scar.

I'm not sure why I do this...but it does tend to take my mind off things...I'd have to guess it all stems back to when I was younger and I had these moles around my neck. They got to a point where the doctor thought they might be malignant, so they had to be removed. I had a total of 6 removed from around my neck in various places. They all ended up being benign...but I think that's why I remove them when I find them anywhere else on my body.

Anyways....I haven't done this for a while. So that's good news, for me at least.

[x_BabyG_x]

You know what, I cant even touch my moles! I have one on the back of my neck and I freak out if people go even a few inches close to my neck!

What does doing that achieve? Does it make you feel better about yourself? You mentioned that you do it when you feel 'disgusted' with yourself... Are you ashamed of your moles?

bbayg xXx

[meccorad]

Yeah I guess....not that I even let people see my body, but still I know they're there. I used to get made fun of especially when I was younger, the ones on my neck were a real problem. They actually stuckout from my neck and would always get snagged on my clothing.

I figured in my rationale, my body looks better with a small pink scar than a brown blotch. I know that sounds really bad...but I do it anyways.

[x_BabyG_x]

If you feel that bad about them, why dont you go to your doctor to get them all professionally removed? It will probably make you feel tons better about them. Ive heard that interferring with moles can be quite dangerous, so just to be on the safe side, Id advise you to look into it!

babyg xXx

[meccorad]

Well from the time when I was younger and had the 6 moles on my neck removed, plus the the one mole on my chest that was about 1.5cm in diameter, plus the numerous ones I've removed myself. I have about 12 scars.

The other ones aren't really large enough to be removed professionally and there's really no reason for me to waste money, when I can do it myself. It's not like I just use some rusty tweezer with old dried blood. I at least keep things sterile as possible.

[x_BabyG_x]

Its still dangerous hun! Ive also heard that moles are cancerous aswell!

Well, because it results in you feeling better about yourself, would you consider that you are actually self-injuring, or its more of a habit?

babyg xXx

[STAC3Y]

I've actually done the exact same thing a couple of times, I had a 'blind' mole on the top of my lip (it was a very light brown mole and not at all noticable unless someone stood right up at my face) but it's something that really bothered me and it's not grown back and there's luckily been no scarring from it, I also have one just under my chin and again, is a 'blind' mole but keeps coming back everytime I pick at it. So you're not alone with this mole picking/tearing off problem!

[meccorad]

I'm not really sure about that one xBaby...I mean I only do it when I'm upset and I can find one growing out...and I don't think it's a habit because I don't do it every day.

and Stac3y I'm so glad someone else knows what I'm talking about....I've tried several times to remove the one on my face, but it only gets worse each time. I had it completely removed once, but it just grew in size...

[x_BabyG_x]

Yeah, well what you need to do is try and find something else to do when your upset. If your really concerned about your behaviour you need to find a substitue that is not as bad!!

babyg xXx

[Clandestine]

Meccorad OMG, if things are urging you to hurt yourself this way, find a way to distract yourself from it. I don't know what, maybe play something? Keep yourself preoccupied? It's when you're alone and in deep thoughts are you prone to self-injury.

I've had my fair share of self- injury since I was 9 years old, and until now, I have not found out the reason why I do it. I bang my head on the wall, thinking having blood is great. It's really weird. I slit my fingers with a knife too, because it relieves me of whatever I'm feeling inside.

I have stopped self-injury for like 2 years already.. what's bothering me now is having thoughts of giving up on life. ;[

By the way, picking up on your moles is kind of really weird. But I respect whatever it is, we're all hurting ;[

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