[Monkey15]

Is it ok that I like to hurt myself, that, I like being a masochist...? I like to lie to people and tell them lies about my life to make it seem worse off then anyone else's. I've gone to the extent of telling someone that I was sexually abused as a child, that both parents were dead, and I've made myself believe I have certain mental disorders, just for this satisfaction of having it worse off than everyone else in the world. I don't know how much farther I am willing to go with it, but I wanna know if this is some kind of a mental disorder.

is this ok? or is it sick?

[Christina86]

It could be some sort of disordered thinking... (((((((Monkey))))))))))

Have you talked to a doctor/therapist about this? It sounds like you want to change this behaviour?

[JimWriter]

You're actually a normal person, who wants to reach out and connect with others. maybe you like the attention. who doesn't once in a while?! Given what you've said about yourself, this sounds normal to me.
You might want to talk with somebody like your physician or a therapist. Good luck.

[x_BabyG_x]

Have you asked yourself and thought about why you do this?

Sometimes when we feel the pain inside, we know that it is always worse to ourselves than what people will assume, so making it seem worse off than it actually is might make people understand more of the pain your feeling.

Just a thought,
babyg xXx - and no, your not sick hun x

[crazybones]

well its probably not ok but there is hope i mean evrybody here has probably done something similar to this ask around some one probably has a better answer for you

[bipolar_bear]

Since it seems that it is bothering you maybe you could contact someone like a t that can help you work throught it.

BB

[Rapunzel]

Everything we do has a functional purpose. My guess would be that you do this to try to get help. You can also ask directly for help. It's hard to believe if you grew up not being able to ask for help, but try it out here and with people you didn't grow up with, and see. You do need help with whatever is making you feel the need to do these things. And it is ok to need help.