[HALLIEBETH87]

Well I had to see my T today. I was brave and told her about my feelings of wanting to cut after I leave her office. She has a new idea for me that I thought I might share so you guys could try it. She is loking around for a rag doll (any doll made completely of fabric). She said she will give it to me and anytime I feel the urges I can cut on the doll instead of myself. But, afterwards, I have to sew it back up to make it whole again. Reply if you think this might be helpful. I am going to give it a shot!

[SweetCrusader]

Wow! That's very interesting. Once I thought about getting a barbie doll and cutting on her legs instead of mine. But it seemed to me like, with as life-like as a Barbie doll looks (in terms of flesh color and stuff), I would have felt like I was actually cutting another person. I couldn't do it.

The rag doll idea is interesting, though... I like that you would ahve to sew it up afterward.

[SweetCrusader]

PS way to be brave!

Maybe thats what your therapist is trying to teach you. To show you how hard it would be to even cut a doll.. that you should feel that kind of resistance to cutting yoruself. That is interesting, but I think its wonderful that you opennd up to her. Great job!

[Zenobia]

Another pat on the back for you bravery. Good job opening up to your Therapist.
Carrie

[HALLIEBETH87]

thanks a lot guys. that means a bunch to me. it was really hard, but i even told her about my urges i have after i leave her office...i am having trouble believing that!