[SylverFlames]

So usually I post in here when I've failed. But this time I'm posting cause I was good. So I pretty much had a mental break down this weekend. I've been having nightmares of when I was raped as a child, among other things (my nightmares pop up in spells every now and then when I'm stressed) and what happens but one of my best friends (also a cousin) calls me sobbing cause she was violently raped. But she won't do anything about it. So I'm freaking out because I can't help her (she's home in ND, and I'm at school in FL) and I can't get in touch with anyone to go be with her (it was 5:30 in the morning). And then my best friend gets mad at me and yells at me because I got pissy and distracted and wouldn't tell him what was wrong (he hadn't asked). So I'm trying to deal with my cousin and my friend and all the other %#@&#! that's piling up, and just lost it on saturday night. Cried my eyes out for hours. And really wanted to cut. Got the razors out and everything. But didn't. I just kept thinking that if I did I would only feel worse. And I picked myself up the next day, and got in touch with someone who dragged my cousin to the hospital and the police, so that was taken care of. I'm not obsessing over the friend thing like I normally do, and I've been studying for finals and accomplishing things. I think the mental break down was needed for me to start climbing back up to sanity. Anyway, just thought I'd share good news for once.

Good for you SylverFlames! Sharing good news is always welcome.

It is encouraging to see people post during good times or times of avoiding behaviours that are less than positive for ourselves.

Congrats on getting through this without cutting. Good luck with your finals!!

[SweetCrusader]

Congratulations! You have been dealing with a LOT, but you have hung in there. I am so impressed with you! And very happy for you, too.

*hugs* if you want 'em

Angela

[SylverFlames]

Thanks Zenhussy and SweetCrusader

And hugs are always welcome *hugs back*

[Zenobia]

Woot!!! that is beyond awesome. You stayed with your feelings, you thought through your urges. Thanks so much for sharing this with us.
Carrie

[jetblackaura]

Well done...that's awesome

[SylverFlames]

Thanks guys! I love coming back and seeing you are all so happy for me. It gives me warm fuzzies, and I love warm fuzzies. I'm actually being all responsible this week, and getting stuff done. It's amazing for me, I'm usually such a slacker, and y'alls support helps a bunch keeping me sane during the craziness that is finals.