Opps! I got cut

I was working around the house and cut my hand very bad .Blood was every where but I loved it .Its going to leave a cool scare I wont to make one on the other hand to match. There something about pain I dont know if it turns me on or what but I have many many cuts and burns from my past .some which I did and some from work which I worked in the glass and slate roof flieds all which leave you with many cuts over the years .

I have not cut or burn myself in 2 years but now after I got hurt around the house its in my head again .The pain just makes me feel so good or maybe alive or even safe im not sure but its a feeling I like .Im bipolar so im sure that that has something to do with it.

Hi. I never like when I got cut. Becuase I didnt do It myself. I was jelous. Then when It left a scar I got so mad. So I put one over it. Im happy that you made it 2 years. Good for you. I dont know how the sensation of cutting can make any body feel alive. It doesnt make me feel alive. It makes me feel dead inside. It makes me feel like Ive killed a part of me. A little piece of happieness. Yea bi polar has something to do with it. Im not sure what though. No one ever explained it to me. But be careful. And Just think that every time you cut your hurting some one you love. or that loves you.

Hi Mickey, how are you at dealing with your feelings?