[Girl21]

i started again. i don't know why. i thought i had everything undercontrol. now i just want to fade away i guess. i can't talk to anyone and i can't sleep i'm afraid to sleep. i probably sound like an idiot. i think i want to die. but i know i will never do it. it's just a thought anyways. i still won't go to a theripist they keep trying to give me meds and i don't want to be on meds. if i make myself bleed a little thats fine right? i mean i can stop again i just need to figure out how. doese any of this make any sense because it doesn't to me and i'm writing it!

[Christina86]

Hi ((((((((Girl))))))))))))

You don't sound like an idiot, you sound like you're under a great deal of stress... has anything happened recently that might have restarted the thoughts to self-injure? You *need* to go see a therapist, because dealing with the root causes of *why* you self-injure requires the help of a therapist. Why are you so against meds? I know I didn't want to be on them in the beginning either, but because I'm on them now my mind is a lot clearer and its easier to ignore the negative thoughts.

Bleeding away your pain is not fine, it means you're hurting. I'm sorry you're finding yourself in such a spot.

Please seek help - talk to a doctor, or a therapist - if you're really against meds, tell them you want to explore other non-psychological drugs (herbal or otherwise) or you just want talk-therapy. You can get whatever you think you need in terms of help - it's there for you.

[turquoisesea]

*hugs*
The therapists can't force you on the meds. What you said about its ok to make you bleed a bit, it's no good, because it's really really hard to stop. And soon bleeding just a little may not be enough

please, try your best to stop as soon as you can - it's such a bad habit. I've been struggling with it too, I've let it go for too long. It really becomes a habit.

You're not crazy, just please try your best to get better

[Fuzzybear]