[Lexicon78]

Last Friday two of my best friends told me they were avoiding my calls and didn't want to talk to me anymore because I called them too often when I was struggling to stay alive and not cut. Well, to say the least, I cut yesterday over all of this. I have 3 people that I call when I'm emotionally in trouble...they even said if I was having a rough time to call them...now they're turning their backs to me. I have no one now. My final support doesn't have a phone anymore so I'm left in the cold to cope all alone. I don't do well when I'm coping all alone.

So what if I get really bad at night and need someone to talk to. No matter how many times these friends needed me, I was there! I have never turned my back away from them when they needed someone! I feel so abandoned right now and it's eating me up.

What should I do?

[eliza]

I too know how you feel. I am all alone when it comes to self punishment. Not having a support group makes it quite difficult to cope without using self punishment. Perhaps having this forum to talk and realizing that you are not alone will help until you can build a new support group.

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I'm not sure what exactly to say, but I do pray that you find healing and happiness.

[nothemama8]

Lexicon I PMd you let me know
Angie

I too am all alone in a strange place... i feel your pain. Maybe when it gets bad you could come to support chat and talk to someone who understands. It's worth a shot. My thoughts and prayers are with you if that's ok... oh yeah, and my hugs too.

Ryan

[Rapunzel]

This is my support group right here. I'm sorry about your friends. It does hurt when you lose a part of your support system, especially someone you trusted and counted on. We're here for you though, and you can come here any time. Maybe it's not the same as live in person, but the caring is real, and we take turns and support each other, and there are enough of us that someone doesn't have to take on more than they can handle and burn out.
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