[DianasClan]

i feel terrible right now. like the world is lined up against me. we had a good day today but i still feel like crud. i wana cut. to feel the release. but i would only get in trobule. and more of that i dont need. i jist dont understand why i feel this way and why i feel the need to cut when really there is no reason for it. so why do i feel this way and why not cut and ease the pain.

jessica of the clan

[phoenix7]

Hi Dianasclan,

somtimes I find when I have had a good day the urge to cut is worse than a bad day - strange ay? I worked out for me why that is that way -its like a rebound effect - you see feeling good is somthing i havnt done for a long long time and in a way it scares me - because I "know" that the pain will be back - so in a way the sooner it comes back the less I will miss the good times - does that make sense to you?

I hope you managed not to cut - the release is temporary and the effects afterwards - well for me anyway - shame - despair - are too hard to bear - take care of you P7