[BrokenNBeautiful]

but I know that I can't.

D* it!

Anatoli is back for spring break and last night me and my husband and sponsor welcomed him.

It was only after I had gone to bed that I realized I made a mistake.

I can't handle him being here now.

The desire for him is once again flaring up and I am dreaming about him again.

My husband and sponsor are both heads-up on it and we are taking action again. I am not getting togethr with this person, not even with hubby and sponsor around! We are sending h im to a motel, might even send him back to Russia.

I don't want to go back to where I was last year---it almost killed me!

And it is VERY INTERESTING that he came right after Lia left!

Does it ever end?

How much drama can I take?

Can no longer.

Just came from a SLAA meeting at slaaonline.

Billi

[El-ahrairah]

im lost you have some history with this anatoli? ;x keep your head up either way and good luck

[by.grace]

What a blessing you don't have to carry this burden alone & can share the load with your husband & sponsor. It must have been very difficult to talk about it at first. How brave you were to reach out for help. I have fears & drives I don't dare share, but I wish I could.