[Anxiety Annie]

I'm not exactly sure why this has happened. I have a couple theories... but nothing that seems...well right.

I began to notice my extreme discomfort with nudity almost two years ago. I was watching a porn with my new boyfriend at the time. I didn't think anything of it. I've been known to like sex, sexual things, perverse jokes,innuendos.. nothing bothered me. Especially porn.

But halfway through I began sweating, getting very hot, uncomfortable, shy, guilty, extremely self- conscious and jealous. I have always had a bit of self esteem problem... but not to the point where I was jealous, nevertheless, acting on that jealousy, towards porn stars. Of course they had nice bodies, they were in porn. But not that day I felt sick and so very depressed about myself.

At the time I ignored the weird reaction. But today... I can't even fathom "ignoring it" It consumes me. And it's not just porn these days either.

It's really anything from sexy, scandalous clad women, or nudity in a sex scene or even in an educational context... I can't watch rated R movies for fear of a sex scene popping up. I can't handle it. The same reaction happens but this time it's multiplied to a power of ten. I have to leave the room...and usually end up in tears. I just don't get it. Why would anyone want to see that?! especially when in a committed relationship. It just doesn't connect. And I'm a fairly open minded person... but not when it comes to this.

There really is so many layers of this.

If anyone would like to talk to me about this I would greatly appreciate the time and interest.

Thanks.

[reg12]

Hi Anxiety Annie,

How was nudity viewed in your family as you were growing up. If it was looked on as bad then it could be because of something like that. Also there could be a reaction to something thats has happened. The intimate section seems to be the part you are having issues with.

Originally Posted by Anxiety Annie

I'm not exactly sure why this has happened. I have a couple theories... but nothing that seems...well right.

I began to notice my extreme discomfort with nudity almost two years ago. I was watching a porn with my new boyfriend at the time. I didn't think anything of it. I've been known to like sex, sexual things, perverse jokes,innuendos.. nothing bothered me. Especially porn.

But halfway through I began sweating, getting very hot, uncomfortable, shy, guilty, extremely self- conscious and jealous. I have always had a bit of self esteem problem... but not to the point where I was jealous, nevertheless, acting on that jealousy, towards porn stars. Of course they had nice bodies, they were in porn. But not that day I felt sick and so very depressed about myself.

At the time I ignored the weird reaction. But today... I can't even fathom "ignoring it" It consumes me. And it's not just porn these days either.

It's really anything from sexy, scandalous clad women, or nudity in a sex scene or even in an educational context... I can't watch rated R movies for fear of a sex scene popping up. I can't handle it. The same reaction happens but this time it's multiplied to a power of ten. I have to leave the room...and usually end up in tears. I just don't get it. Why would anyone want to see that?! especially when in a committed relationship. It just doesn't connect. And I'm a fairly open minded person... but not when it comes to this.

There really is so many layers of this.

If anyone would like to talk to me about this I would greatly appreciate the time and interest.

Thanks.

[Rhapsody]

I use to be the same way and for me the reason was due to childhood sexual abuse... seeing the nakedness and how excited the men got in the movies left me feeling like I needed to run and hide for my own safety.

But I have since spent eight good years in therapy working on me and my own issues and now I can watch most nudity without feeling as though I am falling apart... I still hate drawn out rape scene and probably always will - its a female thing.