What am I now?

Hi everybody,
So next year I'm going off to a college that my cousin goes to. The summer before she left, I came out to her and told her I'm a lesbian. It took some arguments and fighting before she finally accepted me..
However recently I've noticed that men have also given me small stirs of emotion. I was so sure that I was completely gay, but now I'm not so sure..
I fear that when I go to my cousins college, and if I choose to date a man, that she will find out (although I intend to try to avoid her, for that reason and the fact that we don't get along well.) I fear she will label me a liar or something if I did date a man. On top of this my security in my orientation is falling apart. I've always loved women but now I'm feeling something new inside for men too. Does this make me bisexual now? I'm getting confused..

I wouldn't worry about it. I believe most people are attracted to both genders regardless of whether they are lesbian, gay, bi or straight. I believe that it varies in degrees. Besides, sexual orientation includes not only who you are sexually attracted to but who you are romatically and emotionally attracted to. I guess what I'm trying to say is that you don't have to label yourself bi unless you want to. And most women who define themselves as lesbians are attracted to men once in a while whether they admit it or not. I guess the same thing could apply to straights. From what I've been told someone who is bisexual is equally attracted both genders emotionally and physically. I hope this helps you.

I agree with Michele and that was a great answer. But I want to add - I don't think you should worry about what your cousin thinks and it's really not her business who you're attracted to. I know it sounds kind of mean, but that's the truth -you're an adult now. If she says anything "ask her her if she lives in a glass house and would she like her life scrutinized. That's my opinion.

My 2 cents worth. I think it mainly when i started going through major depression - I have always dated men and not given another woman a second look. Suddenly I really connected with another woman at my work. She was divorced and I was in a relationship with my Boyfriend. We had both never been with another woman. Yet we started an affair due to the intense feelings between us and how we could relate.
I eventually broke up with my bf, and thereafter my relationship with this other woman also ended.

Right now I am back with my same old boyfriend.

I have never otherwise been attracted to a woman and am not even sure if I would label myself as bisexual.
It is confusing and when battling with depression and similar, all you want is someone to understand and support you.