[emotionally_drained]

Feel wrong last night and today I played with myself why I thought of my dad I got really funny and enjoyed it but feel. Dirty after its so wrong I didn't like the abuse but

[Harley47]

Hi Angel. I hope I can offer some help.

First, I am very proud of you and happy for you that you stood up to your father...that took more courage than I think I could ever muster. I know it's going to be a hard and potentially scary transition, but I think once you reach the other side of it, you'll look back on this and be glad you did.

That being said, you do have to understand that this is a hard transition, and you've experienced a degree of trauma that few of us can begin to hope to comprehend. Until you get settled in with a therapist to help you work past everything and until this matter with your father is at last laid to rest, it could be possible things like this could happen. It doesn't mean anything like you're "sick" or "dirty" or anything like that. Not at all. But you've experienced more than anyone should have to ever endure, and that is going to have a wide range of effects. I believe this is one.

Try not to focus on this Angel. For now, work on getting through this transition and focusing on getting Angel well. Are you seeing a therapist in the wake of all this? It would be beyond excellent if you could.

Take care, and know I'm still praying for you.

My best,
Harley

[emotionally_drained]

Originally Posted by Harley47

Hi Angel. I hope I can offer some help.

First, I am very proud of you and happy for you that you stood up to your father...that took more courage than I think I could ever muster. I know it's going to be a hard and potentially scary transition, but I think once you reach the other side of it, you'll look back on this and be glad you did.

That being said, you do have to understand that this is a hard transition, and you've experienced a degree of trauma that few of us can begin to hope to comprehend. Until you get settled in with a therapist to help you work past everything and until this matter with your father is at last laid to rest, it could be possible things like this could happen. It doesn't mean anything like you're "sick" or "dirty" or anything like that. Not at all. But you've experienced more than anyone should have to ever endure, and that is going to have a wide range of effects. I believe this is one.

Try not to focus on this Angel. For now, work on getting through this transition and focusing on getting Angel well. Are you seeing a therapist in the wake of all this? It would be beyond excellent if you could.

Take care, and know I'm still praying for you.

My best,
Harley

but I want sex now

[OliversTwisted94]

Don't feel bad
It really does happen to others- trust me, I would know. Sometimes, when I think of the person(s) who abused me, I can't help but be aroused for some reason. I can understand the confusion and the feeling of being "dirty", or feeling disgusted. I can't tell you WHY it happens, but somewhere along the way, some people become "conditioned" per say; that is to say, when certain conditions or situations arise (a smell, or a memory, or anything really), something instinctual rises and causes stimulation. I get that way sometimes too, when I think of my father and my ex-boyfriend (if that is even the right title for him).

[OliversTwisted94]

And also, there is nothing wrong with wanting sex. It can be a purely physiological reaction sometimes, too.

[emotionally_drained]

Thanku nice to know I'm not alone