[tesseract49]

For the last few weeks I have been worrying about this. For my whole life I have felt like I was a lot less masculine than other boys. I have never been interested in any sports and I had no interest in cars. I also find that I have never liked action films or anything action themed. A lot of entertainment that is specifically aimed at a male audience I tend to have little interest. Throughout my life, I have only ever imagined myself as a female. In roleplaying games when I was a kid, I would always see myself as a female character. When I was about 5 years old, I went through a very short phase where I was upset that I was male. I rejected all my masculine toys and begged my parents to buy me girly things. From the age of about 15 onwards, I tried to make myself look more feminine. I grew long hair and became interested in cross-dressing. I also found myself becoming jealous of female traits that I wanted to possess. I realised as I got older that I enjoyed being sexually submissive. Although I have always been attracted to females, I developed a crush on a close male friend I had a while ago. I used to feel very attracted to him and saw him as being incredibly cute. I wanted to sleep with him and had this constant need to hug him and kiss him. He would wear really soft clothing which I loved. I ended up confiding in my only other close friend and told him all the details. He felt that a lot of things I said sounded like what a female would say. He said that the way I was speaking about it was not the way that most men would speak about it. I had this strange problem of feeling an intense need to hug the friend I had a crush on all the time. I felt so restless, I just had to hug him in a close and intimate way. My other friend told me that I was using him as a protective comforting figure. Recentl, I have started to cross dress completely privately and have not told anyone. I found that it made me feel so relieved. I feel like I want to cross dress in front of friends and get them to accept me as a female figure.
My Question - Does this mean anything? I don't I would ever seriously want to transition from male to female, but the fact that I feel so happy acting and dressing like one makes me feel confused.

[ringtailcat]

tessera It sounds like you are not as confused as you think. It is also not necessary to make any decisions or label yourself in any way.

[growlithing]

Some men just like cross dressing and they feel like a woman inside but don't have a desire to transition. Some men are attracted to both men and women. Some guys are more "effeminate" and talk about your feelings.

Yes it means something that you feel the way you do. It doesn't mean that you are absolutely 100% transexual or homosexual or bisexual or whatever other label you can think of. It means that you are a beautiful and unique person on the road to self discovery. The labels really don't matter so long as you are happy with yourself. Don't prevent yourself from being who you are and doing things that makes you happy just because you don't have a clear cookie cutter label to define it.

[CaptainKirk]

I was born a girl with a younger brother, but quickly lost interest in all things girly. Around the same time that I realized that I'm a guy inside, my "brother" realized that she's a girl inside. Now we've "traded" genders, so to speak. I think it's perfectly normal, and you should do whatever makes you happy.

[tesseract49]

Thanks very much. I want to make sure that I remember your words .

Originally Posted by growlithing

The labels really don't matter so long as you are happy with yourself. Don't prevent yourself from being who you are and doing things that makes you happy just because you don't have a clear cookie cutter label to define it.

[charlesthepoet2003]

i'm a male but i feel more like a girl; and i really love that feeling of feeling like a girl, i
hate being masculine in this male body; i prefer of being very feminine, and it seems
that i am more attracted to the same sex and not to the other; i have always
consider myself as a transgender trap in the wrong body, and for some reason i have
develop fetishism for female things.

[tesseract49]

You sound exactly like me. I suppose I am not a transgender, because I would have a deep need for change to for that to be true. I suppose I am just a girly male.